Thursday, August 4, 2011

i feel so horrible right now, but no one will know.
cos i will tell no one and no one checks this anymore anyway.
it is so hard to get rid of this stuffy feeling i have in my chest.
but no one will ask, because no one knows.
i seem carefree but i really am not.
but no one knows because no one sees.
the failure that i have felt will stick for a really long time.
but no one noticed because no one knows me.
i feel i don't belong anywhere.
but really, no one knows.
maybe others feel the same way.
i don't care because i don't know.
even if i do know, i wouldn't know what to do.
maybe it's because of this lack of action, which causes no one to know me.
i am selfish.
but isn't everyone?
i hate the way people think i am.
i hate the way some people act.
i hate the way the world perceives things. Success. Beauty.
i hate myself.
i hate so many things.
but i can't change anything.
i live in a mask.
i don know who i am.
i wish to break the mask.
but i do not dare to.
the questions i ask myself,
pisses me off.
i try to sooth myself,
but the logic in me roughens it.
i hate that feeling.
contradiction.
i think too much, i tell myself.
but what if i am right, i say again.
but what if i am wrong, i retort.
but the ealier sticks to me.
i see things with a different eye.
but act another way.
to fit in.
no one knows how i really feel.
maybe because i'm not letting anyone in.
maybe because no one cares to ask.
maybe because i'm afraid to find one, only to find out she/he is just asking out of courtesy.
so many maybes...
maybe i just don know what to think.
i really don know.
i wish to not care. i really do.
but reality doesn't allow.
it really doesn't.
it shoves that up my face everyday.
i hate this.

//y9:02 PMy//

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A tortoise is a land-dwelling reptile of the order Testudines. Like their aquatic cousins, the turtles, tortoises are shielded from predators by a shell. The top part of the shell is the carapace, the underside is the plastron, and the two are connected by the bridge. The tortoise has both an endoskeleton and an exoskeleton. Tortoises can vary in size from a few centimetres to two meters. Most land tortoises are herbivorous in the wild.

Tortoises generally have lifespans comparable with those of human beings, and some individuals are known to have lived longer than 150 years. Because of this, they symbolize longevity in some cultures, such as China.

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