我一定是疯了。。。又不要读书，又不要做功课，只会看电脑，然后上学有睡觉。。。 好讨厌自己！！！！！！ 啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊

ah damn, i can't concentrate!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SHUCKS!!!! RARRRRRR
bleah~~~ concentrate!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MATH!!!!
DAMNDAMNDAMNDAMNDAMNDAMN>>>>
ahh, what the hell is going on in my mind! clear it!!!!

reading up and rephrasing the feminist movement is driving me NUTS!!!! there's just simply too much information! US itself can take up to more then 5 pages! OH NO!!!!
IH SIA!!! shucks!!! need more info! but the internet is pissing me off by not providing me with them!! RARRR!

had level dialogue with mdm heng, 3 vice principals, some teachers, councillors (did i spell it correctly?) and fellow exco09 during lunch! i was scary... it wasn't until i was called! cos i was the only one wearing jacket and mdm heng decided to point me out and asked for my opinion! it was nice that she asked for our opinion but scary nah! good experience though. i thought that the 1st issue lasted wayyy too long, but oh well, its a pretty impt issue~ i wanted to raise the issue on like having 10 mins break btw lessons just like the china sch system cos students are always damn tired and all, no point in forcing them to the next lesson where they blank out! but yeah one thing would be that we'd need to end sch like 1 hr late and students might not want it and cca would be affected and all~
also, if it were to be implemented, must make sure teachers do not end up eating into the 10 mins or there's no point in having it! hmmm, so many probs! but i seriously think its a good idea! hahas +D but there wasn't enough time to raise it so, nvmnvm, maybe can raise it at the next level dialogue (if there still is and we are involved).
it was nice that the management did ask for opinions from the psl and sexy exco like elena, joseph and all talked +D yanni the boob raised good points as well! ohoh, we were provided with chicken rice and drinks but i seriously didn't dare to eat cos i thought that i'd be pretty rude~ hahas! so i went hungry until after sch! +D ohwells.

ohoh, tomoro me and duanmug having question and answer game on stage! o.O scary! hope we don't screw up!!!!! jiayou!!! and thanks meng for buying the prizes and wulaoshi for guiding us through! she pretty much wrote the entire script! hahas +D

these few days, i am seriously in a i-dont-want-study mood! rarr! sleep~~~~ i'm really disappointed at not having a lion dance performance. as in we do perform but is just like xing li to the vip and all~ so we pretty much trained for nothing though some parts were quite fun! well, as esther said, we can't blame the sch for cutting it short because they have a full schedule and we didn't go for the rehearsal last friday. But just to voice my opinion, i think that there's a wee bit, well maybe much much more than a wee bit, unfair that the sch cut our performance instead of cutting the rest like maybe for like 30s so that there would be at least 3 mins for us on stage... but esther does have a point at that too that the sch can't risk us messing up since we didn't go for rehearsal on friday~ idk lah.. this year is like prob the last year with shi cos yeah, the juniors don't do shi except simin and hsichien who knows a bit~ and we don't get to perform... good job

we had performance in the boarding sch which was funny cos they gave so many freaking oranges! so we had to like stuff them down our shirts o.O hahas!!! then immediately after the performance, had to cover ourselves with the shi! and attempt to take them all out! but the boarding sch ppl were nice bah, they did clap loudly and thus, felt pretty appreciated, even the auntie in charge (in pink de) was nice, she kept smiling at us and thanking us and all +D thanks, you don't know how much a smile means to us now that many people do not appreciate us! we lian in the netball court, ppl complain, in quadrangle, ppl complain, in field, ppl complain, finally in carpark... but also abit da rao st'john but they tolerant enough to not complain, thank you very much! dalt is gonna die... there is like no enrolment this year bleah....

back to boarding sch, yeah, then we perform for the china students, and they laughed and all so i was pretty happy! hahas +D then at the end of entire thing, there was pizza!!! hahas +D and MONEY!!! weeee! i obscenely had oranges in my erhem... and glenda tan the gross ate the oranges that 1) caoji plucked in np room 2) same oranges, skin peeled off by glenda tan who used her hands to wear shiku, LONG XIE, touch the floor etc, 3) was in a bag that was left in np room for god knows how long.... godliness..

ohoh, today me and caoji very de happy ah!! after all the hardwork, we are finally able to tiao tiao with shi!!!! OMG! hahas +D very happy! seeing that we've really progressed. from the start 连跳都跳不上，到终于可以跳上（with cao's hands on mine, took a seriously long time k!) to now can tiao on without hand and finally the one with the actual shi!!! AHHHHH! though we would still fail quite a number of times, it is an achievement man! at least she can stand rather steadily for the entire qishi can! hahas +DDDDDD　加油！

hmm, math is starting to get boring cos of differentiation and i can actually fall asleep in math which is BAD!!! gosh... i think i should start writing my np diary or sth and my NYAA! ohoh, thursday, me and duan mug going on stage to have this question game thingum! 大家要踊跃(is this the correct yong yue?) 地参加哦～
whao, longest post this year i tink! +D i shall go do my hw and the accursed la oral presentation thingum... IH SIA!! OH NO!!!

I HATE HOMEWORK!! I LIKE STUDYING BUT I HATE HOMEWORK!!!

有做回cadet 的feeling~
以前当cadet 时，想当nco, 现在当了nco，想变回cadet~ oh the irony...
hahaha~~

__ 有_____ 还是最好不过的。。。但已经回不了头了~

things feel so gloom~
jiayou ppl!
jiayou NP~ jiayou 44 ncos~jiayou nyct1 & 2!
jiayou yanni and mari~jiayou exco~jiayou 402
jiayou peiting!!!!!
JIAYOU 41!!!!!!

wouldn't it be nice if there weren't any homework?
all we need to do is go to school and gain knowledge and go back home and enjoy childhood (or in this case, teenage hood?)
during the week days, we'd need to worry abt homework and next day's lessons and cca,
week ends, worry about the hw given and how we can gain better results
holidays, if we don't study, 内疚感would kick in, worry about next year etc...
when can we rest??? even now when i play/ watch shows/ basically relax or what ppl would call slack off, i can't even forgive myself for doing if after i've done it... can we play in peace? no bah... sigh...
i think i slack off too much.... i shall control... 适可而止~ 好难哦~ 但不行也得行，如今竞争激烈，不读书就会落后。。。sigh...