ok.. since i think i going crazy now, shall blog a bit to yeah...
this was what i wrote when thong-kun kept saying she wanted to eat "pillows" the cracker when we were in the library... i am chao irritated by my ugly handwriting sia... i feel like tearing my paper apart.. esp this one..
and this one.. is chem.... irritating.. can't tear cos is notes... have to like stay with it.. till have time to recopy... hate my handwriting.... idiotic..
history.... not that bad.. but still see le very bu shuang.... grrrrr..... i feel like tearing every single paper apart....
homelearning should not have homeowork mah.. so weird.. waste time one. how to do the homework when haven finish studying... very defeat pupose of testing myself after i finish learning cos i not done.. but teacher want to see.... so is like study while doing... pointless....

well, one last day to the end of the not very long homelearning though i appreciate the good intentions of the school.. yeah.. Don't feel like i have done much... thurs was like only history, slept at 5.00am with glennie, but still didn't finish.. finished it on thursday.. but took extremely long cos i fell asleep halfway... yeah.. then started on Chem.. slept at 3.00am.. watch some stuff that made me feel so guilty... wasted time.... feel like bashing up myself sometimes for doing unneccesary stuff at the wrong times.... now still at chem only... haven started on Bio, physics (a bit cos of block), maths, LA, Chinese.... what is wrong with me lah.. less then 2 weeks to EOYs and i am still like slacking......... how????? Don like the feeling that i waste so much of my time and come to regret after EOYs.....
Somehow i fear EOYs soo much because i am scared that i would disappoint myself due to the fact that my blocks 2 did very well.... i don like it when i say abt my scores.. then some ppl tink i very li hai... i am not.... i really hope i do well for this EOYs....
Fear:
LA: block 1 was easier cos is TKAM (can memorise), block 2 was rather lucky cos i simply had no idea what imagery and sound was.. just crapped what i thought and scored well...
Chinese: block 1 was pretty lucky.. some words i just choose and got it right... block 2 was easy..
Maths: failed block 1 horribly.. block 2 was ok...
Science: well.. i think that all our science blocks are easier than that of the other classes taking dif.. science at a time...
History: failed block 1 badly... block 2 did extremely well.... but i have no idea how i did it.. i guessed the definitions ones so prepared.... the structured one also guess dao... then the essay was predictable also.. then is like i have no idea how i explained and all cos when i tried to do a different topic de essay.. i was very blur... i think this full marks.. is.. scary.. then there was no source-based...
geog: block 1 was simpler.. block 2 ok bah...

Sometimes i think i very useless.. people can study finish 3 sciences in one day.. i need like 1 week... then is like i copy like mad and all also cannot be compared to them.. i am not smart.. i si3 bei4.....then is like... i don seem to be able to control myself of my desires..... that is bad... sian.... i shall continue studying chem.. determine to finish by today.. haven done any homework yet.. i bet people have finished their homework.. finish studying..... sleep early.. relax and blah.. while i am here wanting to tear my books apart...... this is a feeling that i hate..... hate...... useless..... hate....................................................... ah.................................................................................

well, today is the 1st day of homelearning day, not suppose to be blogging but yeah.... sian..
have been studying history since the beginning of the day... only just finished J.O. still have a few more stacks of slides... i aim to finish history by today!!! me and glenda are planning to drink coffee and keep ourselves awake through the night!! jia you my study buddy!! hahas
me and glennie decided that i shall be her study buddy and running buddy after sch after eoys while clar is her 100s buddy and er.. what arh? i cannot rmb.. yeah... hahas+)
jia you for EOYs wor!! well, quitting french has an advantage of being able to study more lah.. then can start crapping with glennie in the lib after sch like the condom boy!! hahs.. yeah.. is just a pokey box with lots of deco... i shall take photos of it and upload.. hahas +) yeah...
so yeah.. continue to study all!! bonne chance!!

the uncle went through the ceiling of th library today!!! goodness!! hahas, very amusing, the rise of the uncle and the descend of the uncle... hahas=) i studied with glennie today in th library, better then in canteen, very warm.. i decided not to bring NP jacket for these few days, hot!! goodness... in the library very funny, we had lame jokes and yeah.. hahas=) we shall study in the library everyday next week if possible hahahahas+) since i no 3rd lang le (sobssss.....) EOYs coming sia, scary..... chem will start driving me mad after bio... i love bio
i had psl interview yesterday, er it was...... hmm.. i don know..... just ask like what commitee i wanted to go and blah... yeah... then i totally forgot all the PSl duties that i have been to, i totally screw up i think.. hmm... yeah...
ok, next, i plan to finish geog today!! i must !! hahahaahahas+)
not much emoing time this week sia... hmmm.. oh i very clever yesterday sia..... i fell asleep without glenda studying with me, i was at home, then i set alarm to wake me up at 5.00 then i forgot my clock on my phone is 24 hrs de, so 5.00 = five am..... yeah.. so i woke up 20.00 ... so stupid sia.... okok... nothing much le... hahas.. castratomy.... okok..

whao, blog dying!! nvm nvm.. anyway, tomoro have drama assessment, hmm, hopes all goes well.. my hair is in a weird shape!! i wonder why sia.... hmmm.. hahas+) Green GeoGraphy file has officially become my newest thing i like to say to GeoGraphy... hahas+) okok.. shouldn't make fun of her that much... yeah... so little days to EOYs left, i scared sia.... hmmm..... i shall try to study without falling asleep =) i decided that i shall probably sleep at 9.30 then wake up at 3.00 then i bathe, then study till 6.15 when i change and yeah... i hope eoys is easy!! no at least let me get in subject combo i want sia =) i realised i type very slowly.. o.o hmm.. nvm nvm... this is an extremely random post that i decided to post before starting on plate tectonics which is my favourite topic in geog because it is interesting and nothing else, not like nic!! hahahahahs..okok.... rocks is fun too sia =) +) +) +) oh and if anyone sees these (thanks jinghao for reminding me) +) , please don add me to stuff like friendster, facebook, tagged... etc.. i don have one sia, and not intending to create one +) thank you very much hahahahahas =) i shall add u all if i make one in the future k +) hahas+) oh then for ICT i did this web thingy on solalalar system.. =) http://nyghfs2/206/206_22 i tink hahas+) i can't see on my comp though sad...

i handed in the form already. sigh... u know, i'd never thought that this day would actually come when i actually have to take the form, fill it in, signed it, and passing it to the office. when i took up french for the very 1st time, i loved the feeling that i am learning a subject that not many people took. Though many a times during these one and a half years, i did thought that french was really really troublesome and tough, i could not understand what the teachers were talking about, others could score well, but i could not, but never did i wanted to quit. I wanted to persevere till sec 4 if possible, continue, but now... French lessons were probably the subject that i thought was almost as boring as LA and i think that it is the lesson that i have slept most in, but it is my favourite lesson since sec 2. i love french, though at points of time, i really want to just crush up the paper during the exams cos i really don understand those words, those grammar, but it seems to be a passion. Giving it up like that is really saddening.... i really didn't have the heart to tell mlle bye and say that this is probably the last time that i would be in her lesson and pester her with weird questions like which country she was from which she refused to tell us unless i got 70 marks. But i never achieved it, i never got to know it. Mlle lim is the best french teacher that i have ever had and i thank her for that. she is the only teacher whom i ask questions for almost everything, tell her what i am unhappy with, laughed and joked with her, a teacher that i thought was though, boring, but a good one. Thank you mlle lim for this enjoyable and fruitful year that u have given me, i learnt much from you, i understand your lessons, you motivate me, merci mlle merci beaucoup. I am really sorry that i can't continue french because it is really affecting my grades with me getting below 65 or 60 every time, i am sorry i never got a 70, you always told me i improved, when u said that to me the 1st time, i was really happy because no teacher has ever told me that i improved a lot. Thank you mlle lim thank you. today when i actually got the form signed by the librarian, i never thought how long i have not been in there and borrow books that i would never get a chance to borrow anymore. when i went into the general office today, when i gave the form, it was a sense of sadness that i have never felt before, when i came out, regret was what i felt, i gave myself the statistics telling myself that quitting french is the right choice, it is now or never. before i went in, i stood outside giving myself an excuse that i was waiting for yiming, but acutally i really didn't wanted to go in. i spent so much effort and time on french already, and giving it up would probably be my greatest regret, this year's french class really gave me a feeling that i belonged in that class, mlle was open, i was open, my classmates are nice and really funny, it was the best learning environment and parting was really one of the sad things, together with the pity of giving up this subject that i have always been so proud of. Though my parents did say that they would let me study in alliance francais with a considerable amount of money, the feeling of having mlle as a teacher that i can fully communicate with might not be there, the feeling of me improving as time passes might not be there, the amusement we share as classmates would definitely not be there. Though i might be happy at alliance francais, if i do study there which is still very indefinite, at this time, i just feel the loss and feeling of regret. i would never have considered to quit if this year, ny was still using the percentage, other subjects would pull french up, but msg can't, getting a 4-6 for french would be a great impact on the overall grades. sigh... the very 1st time i went for french, i was so excited, i even borrowed a book to study french before, in the library, reading it, trying to prononce the words, when i went for the registration i missed 1st act, i slept through many of mdm's classes but i did learn, mlle lessons were boring yes, but beneficial and i will certainly miss it.

for 206 people, or i think any other sec 2 mates, these are the topics for the maths EOYs in case you all never see in class +)
topics include:
mensuration
expansion & factorization of algebraic expressions
solutions of quadratic equations
algebraic manipulation & formulae
simultaneous equations
linear graphs and applications
graphs of quadratic functions
variations
indices and fractional indices
standard form
pythagoras theorem
trigonometric ratios
congruency and similarity
simultaneous equations (non-linear)

+) that all i think +) jiayou for eoys +)