Saturday, July 24, 2010
my favourite character. how i wish i could run as fast as he can. run away from lots of things and be so fast that others are so slow, so that i can just be "away from reality" for a couple more seconds. Hahas. but wally has his problems too, he can't run away from it too. no one can. just accept reality man~
just do your best and live life to the fullest! yes! go peiting! yes yes! do well! bloooppp!!!!
//y10:26 PMy//
sigh... i want to punch something...
//y10:18 PMy//
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
F41L...
this is so sad and disappointing. I understand that it is our fault and there is no way we can argue that it isn't. we deserved the scolding but somehow i just feel argh! (dont know what word to use) I understand the seriousness of the matter and how the _ has the right to reprimand us, but somehow (maybe is my pan4ni4 hormones acting up) i just feel so irritated. Not angry, i have no right to be angry and we don't deserve to be angry cos we are really in the wrong. one mistake, 玩完儿了。。。i feel that the matter may have been blown up for a wee bit too much, though i know the seriousness of it and it is definitely our fault, no arguments there.
When _ _ us, a sentence _ said just really made me feel sad (sorry lack of vocab). we failed to enforce what we preach. Since the beginning, i know that i am not a very good NCO, but i have been hoping maybe just for a little, cadets may think otherwise. But after this incident, i feel that i really fail at being an NCO, a leader, a senior. Some squids say that they are incompetent and haven't done well in their roles/ as NCOs, but i would like to tell them that they have done their part well. They really have. I see how squids put in so much effort into something and destroy their healths over things and emo about NP stuff and they deserve to be recognised for their efforts and not be put down by some outsider....
A failed squad since sec 1 where we have atrocious U and horrible drills we havent change much about 3 years later. we still have ugly drills and we can still find something to screw us up just 4 days before pop. we are damn coool man! i dont think we would be let off so easily with regards to the incident... whether the punishment is serious or not, 这记忆要从脑里刷掉恐怕没那么容易吧。sigh... 300th post and it is a depressing one...
Despite all that has happened, i truly do not regret being a member of batch 41. we may not be bonded, we may not be pro but i just feel safe being in it. would pop change things? i hope not.
//y10:39 PMy//
