Wednesday, October 8, 2008
today is the first day we have our EOYs, and its chinese paper. quite disappointed at myself, 期望越高，失望越大。。爬得越高，跌得越重。。its like the paper is actually very simple... very.. but is it because i did not have the time or i was just pure slow.... as in when i tell ppl that i am going to do badly, i know that they will not feel that good in a sense that everyone's definition of good is different... is like i got about 86/110 for chinese in block 1 and 90.5/110 for block 2 which is extremely unexpected... then from there, i cannot except the fact of falling below 80... i know people would feel very angry upon hearing that i can't accept the fact of falling below 80 when some fail... but is just MY definition of good.... i called my mom just now to 诉苦then my mom was like telling me it's ok.. you might do well! yeah.. felt better hearing but is just that i've been doing so well in the chinese's main paper, not compo, that i cannot accept the prospect of not doing well.... sian... oh and to clarify this post is not to pick on anyone.. is just what i thought while walking back... sad... then for the composition, well i think i will do well for si1 han2 but for the compo, the topic that i chose sort of came out for last year's sec 1 eoys.. which i did badly but did it again this year... is this a very suicidal act.... i don know... i was reading through my zuo wen sia and i thought that i wrote well... this is actually cos i have enough time, all the time i wanted to write, all the resources.. but in school with only a dictionary with not a clue as to how the words even look like when i am finding it in the dictionary.. sigh.... i was sooo huang while doing my compo, felt like crashing it up.... i hope this year's EOYs checking of paper will not 历史重演。。cos last year's paper check was definitely a very bad one.. i failed maths paper last year, LA, chinese, i think history.... i hope i do well this year... not only pass... do well..... i know tis a bit unreasonable and no one will 可怜me since i brought this upon myself for having higher expectations, but this is just who i am.. sigh.. sigh... sigh.....
//y2:08 PMy//
