Saturday, September 27, 2008
well, one last day to the end of the not very long homelearning though i appreciate the good intentions of the school.. yeah.. Don't feel like i have done much... thurs was like only history, slept at 5.00am with glennie, but still didn't finish.. finished it on thursday.. but took extremely long cos i fell asleep halfway... yeah.. then started on Chem.. slept at 3.00am.. watch some stuff that made me feel so guilty... wasted time.... feel like bashing up myself sometimes for doing unneccesary stuff at the wrong times.... now still at chem only... haven started on Bio, physics (a bit cos of block), maths, LA, Chinese.... what is wrong with me lah.. less then 2 weeks to EOYs and i am still like slacking......... how????? Don like the feeling that i waste so much of my time and come to regret after EOYs.....
Somehow i fear EOYs soo much because i am scared that i would disappoint myself due to the fact that my blocks 2 did very well.... i don like it when i say abt my scores.. then some ppl tink i very li hai... i am not.... i really hope i do well for this EOYs....
Fear:
LA: block 1 was easier cos is TKAM (can memorise), block 2 was rather lucky cos i simply had no idea what imagery and sound was.. just crapped what i thought and scored well...
Chinese: block 1 was pretty lucky.. some words i just choose and got it right... block 2 was easy..
Maths: failed block 1 horribly.. block 2 was ok...
Science: well.. i think that all our science blocks are easier than that of the other classes taking dif.. science at a time...
History: failed block 1 badly... block 2 did extremely well.... but i have no idea how i did it.. i guessed the definitions ones so prepared.... the structured one also guess dao... then the essay was predictable also.. then is like i have no idea how i explained and all cos when i tried to do a different topic de essay.. i was very blur... i think this full marks.. is.. scary.. then there was no source-based...
geog: block 1 was simpler.. block 2 ok bah...
Sometimes i think i very useless.. people can study finish 3 sciences in one day.. i need like 1 week... then is like i copy like mad and all also cannot be compared to them.. i am not smart.. i si3 bei4.....then is like... i don seem to be able to control myself of my desires..... that is bad... sian.... i shall continue studying chem.. determine to finish by today.. haven done any homework yet.. i bet people have finished their homework.. finish studying..... sleep early.. relax and blah.. while i am here wanting to tear my books apart...... this is a feeling that i hate..... hate...... useless..... hate....................................................... ah.................................................................................
//y10:57 PMy//
