Wednesday, September 10, 2008
i handed in the form already. sigh... u know, i'd never thought that this day would actually come when i actually have to take the form, fill it in, signed it, and passing it to the office. when i took up french for the very 1st time, i loved the feeling that i am learning a subject that not many people took. Though many a times during these one and a half years, i did thought that french was really really troublesome and tough, i could not understand what the teachers were talking about, others could score well, but i could not, but never did i wanted to quit. I wanted to persevere till sec 4 if possible, continue, but now... French lessons were probably the subject that i thought was almost as boring as LA and i think that it is the lesson that i have slept most in, but it is my favourite lesson since sec 2. i love french, though at points of time, i really want to just crush up the paper during the exams cos i really don understand those words, those grammar, but it seems to be a passion. Giving it up like that is really saddening.... i really didn't have the heart to tell mlle bye and say that this is probably the last time that i would be in her lesson and pester her with weird questions like which country she was from which she refused to tell us unless i got 70 marks. But i never achieved it, i never got to know it. Mlle lim is the best french teacher that i have ever had and i thank her for that. she is the only teacher whom i ask questions for almost everything, tell her what i am unhappy with, laughed and joked with her, a teacher that i thought was though, boring, but a good one. Thank you mlle lim for this enjoyable and fruitful year that u have given me, i learnt much from you, i understand your lessons, you motivate me, merci mlle merci beaucoup. I am really sorry that i can't continue french because it is really affecting my grades with me getting below 65 or 60 every time, i am sorry i never got a 70, you always told me i improved, when u said that to me the 1st time, i was really happy because no teacher has ever told me that i improved a lot. Thank you mlle lim thank you. today when i actually got the form signed by the librarian, i never thought how long i have not been in there and borrow books that i would never get a chance to borrow anymore. when i went into the general office today, when i gave the form, it was a sense of sadness that i have never felt before, when i came out, regret was what i felt, i gave myself the statistics telling myself that quitting french is the right choice, it is now or never. before i went in, i stood outside giving myself an excuse that i was waiting for yiming, but acutally i really didn't wanted to go in. i spent so much effort and time on french already, and giving it up would probably be my greatest regret, this year's french class really gave me a feeling that i belonged in that class, mlle was open, i was open, my classmates are nice and really funny, it was the best learning environment and parting was really one of the sad things, together with the pity of giving up this subject that i have always been so proud of. Though my parents did say that they would let me study in alliance francais with a considerable amount of money, the feeling of having mlle as a teacher that i can fully communicate with might not be there, the feeling of me improving as time passes might not be there, the amusement we share as classmates would definitely not be there. Though i might be happy at alliance francais, if i do study there which is still very indefinite, at this time, i just feel the loss and feeling of regret. i would never have considered to quit if this year, ny was still using the percentage, other subjects would pull french up, but msg can't, getting a 4-6 for french would be a great impact on the overall grades. sigh... the very 1st time i went for french, i was so excited, i even borrowed a book to study french before, in the library, reading it, trying to prononce the words, when i went for the registration i missed 1st act, i slept through many of mdm's classes but i did learn, mlle lessons were boring yes, but beneficial and i will certainly miss it.
//y6:36 PMy//
