Wednesday, October 10, 2007
its been really long since i posted and i have just finish EOYs, i know i am suppose to be happy but instead i feel so miserable. especially after today when i got back my french results. i know i just wanted st the very least pass it but it is just that when i compare my scores with my friends, i feel so sad cos i got so low. :( i did study. i studied harder for french then for LA or history, i actually cpied over 10 pages of notes and yet i still got so low... and eveytime after each test, i feel so stupid cos i got so many things wrong... and especially for science, i sed almost the entire september holidays to study for science and yet when i did the physics paper i could still make a stupid and ridiculus mistake... i practised.. ahhh, depressed... but of course i hope to pass.. i don seem to be able to be good at anything, i thought i was good at maths but i was not, i once thought i was good at at least art, but i am not. i just seem to fail at everything... sad... of course i will study hard and try to remain positive.. ahhh. sad//// i can joke about lots of things but of course i would feel sad.. the only time that i can concentrate and feel happy is when i am in school or when someone is talking, playing with me.. when i am alone like now.. hmm.. ahhh.. nvm.... it feels nice to be with someone, even with my irritating brother.. he can make me laugh, irritated and i would scold him but i am occupied and after that i would play with him... ahh. i wish to be like brother in a way that he is soo carefree and plays without worrying anything about his studies, and when he plays computer, he play all day without feeling guilty and he is soo very relaxed and amusing... ( i hope my bro doesn't see this) hahas, this cheeres me up a little:) ... ahh.. life is most unfair and weird..
//y5:19 PMy//
