life goes O.o :) :( >.< O.0 ^.^

2012-01-31T15:10:00.002+08:00

trying hard but not paying off... tried studying for econs before hand, ask more questions, question more... but its confusing me more than ever. teachers dont seem too patient to explain. sigh...trying hard for chem too but still cant seem to achieve much out of anything... this is depressing...

'can we get someone more presentable?' maybe im being too sensitive but this really hurt me. but it seems so small to bother anyone about it. but it bothers me so much...

qualities to survive in today's society:

smart

critical thinker

good.looking

sociable

able to speak at ease

i have none of these qualities... is there a cause for optimism? not much...

2012-01-31T15:08:00.000+08:00

2011-10-20T22:17:00.002+08:00

做事没经过大脑就去做了。后来发现做错了，后悔了，但也来不及了。
明知道自己文也不行，武也不行，就应该把握机会争取更多更多。不比别人聪明就得加倍努力。但是我这个大笨蛋。。。不聪明就算了，也不努力，不会控制自己。做事鲁莽，也不三思而行，而实行了后思结果发现问题不断。而且还给他人添了麻烦。。。
自己失败就好，还要拖其他人下水。
有时心里真的很矛盾。不知道是自己想太多，还是根本就是自己的问题。是我的错吗？应该是。。。我又努力吗？我有。但足够吗？。。。我不知道。我不愿去想，但现实往往将真相往我脸上塞，不给我喘气的余地，但却给我足够的时间自己折磨着自己。。。无时无刻，无法停止，无法原谅，无法放开，也无法让人知道我是多么的疼。
人人都有自己的烦恼，我怎么能将自己的烦恼推向他们？但我有这些他们吗？我不知道。
或许我想太多了。
终究都是自己的错。

2011-10-14T17:29:00.002+08:00

sigh。。。。。。。。。。。。

2011-08-04T21:02:00.003+08:00

i feel so horrible right now, but no one will know.
cos i will tell no one and no one checks this anymore anyway.
it is so hard to get rid of this stuffy feeling i have in my chest.
but no one will ask, because no one knows.
i seem carefree but i really am not.
but no one knows because no one sees.
the failure that i have felt will stick for a really long time.
but no one noticed because no one knows me.
i feel i don't belong anywhere.
but really, no one knows.
maybe others feel the same way.
i don't care because i don't know.
even if i do know, i wouldn't know what to do.
maybe it's because of this lack of action, which causes no one to know me.
i am selfish.
but isn't everyone?
i hate the way people think i am.
i hate the way some people act.
i hate the way the world perceives things. Success. Beauty.
i hate myself.
i hate so many things.
but i can't change anything.
i live in a mask.
i don know who i am.
i wish to break the mask.
but i do not dare to.
the questions i ask myself,
pisses me off.
i try to sooth myself,
but the logic in me roughens it.
i hate that feeling.
contradiction.
i think too much, i tell myself.
but what if i am right, i say again.
but what if i am wrong, i retort.
but the ealier sticks to me.
i see things with a different eye.
but act another way.
to fit in.
no one knows how i really feel.
maybe because i'm not letting anyone in.
maybe because no one cares to ask.
maybe because i'm afraid to find one, only to find out she/he is just asking out of courtesy.
so many maybes...
maybe i just don know what to think.
i really don know.
i wish to not care. i really do.
but reality doesn't allow.
it really doesn't.
it shoves that up my face everyday.
i hate this.

2011-07-17T19:29:00.002+08:00

Our days are the days we have. The number is the number, and from birth to the final breath, we are counting down to the finite end of that number.
Whether we make our future, or our future makes us... Whether we swim with or against the river of our past, our days remain our own--
--To live in fullest flight of our passions in the service of those we can love. There can be no higher calling, no greater destiny, no more profound choice.
I live today.
I die tomorrow.
And in-between...
Joy
-The Brave and the Bold

2010-12-30T22:43:00.001+08:00

sigh... fail manz...~

2010-12-15T00:10:00.003+08:00

i shall blog about how nice 蔡骏老师 was today!!

okok, so basically, he came for the book fair to have a talk today about china's future literary works! so i was all excited and decided to eat bread for dinner and waited for him so that i could get his signature! there wasn't much audience so i was being sad for him. He's such a brilliant author! he shouldn't be neglected at all!!! Ok, halfway through his talk, he sort of digressed into talking about his books which made me really excited cos i love his books! but this lady decided to get him onto the right track which i thought she could have done so more, let's say, politely... (i was feeling pretty irritated at her for doing so, though she did have a right seeing that she was focusing on the topic). Then i really couldn't wait any more since i was going to be late! so i went up to the host, which was this guy from mediacorp, and he was really nice！！he managed to wrap everything up for me and got 蔡骏老师 to sign my books! i think i was in a state of confusion and madness and i think that he thinks i'm mad! and i was pretty rude too, i sort of ran off after he signed because i was all flustered with excitement and i was pretty late too!!!

but later i decided to get his signature for jiawen!!! but he left! so this nice lady said she could help me get it and pass it back to me! so i bought another set and passed it to her and was really happy!

then then, about 10 minutes before we close, there was this announcement "staff who wants 蔡骏's signature, please come to customer service counter, thank you!" i was like o.O

HE CAME BACK!!!! 蔡骏老师's SOOOOOOOOOOOOO NICE!!! no matter whether he came back for other purposes, i shall believe that he came back to sign the books!!! 谢谢你了老师!!!!!!!

he's really a good author yeah!! hoho+D me and my laopo big fan~ hoho~ and i thought that we left a pretty bad impression on him on this few trips (or maybe 1st) to singapore this time... the entire audience was pretty dead and it was sad... i was feeling sad for him, and i hoped that he didn't feel too bad!! he's the best and i hope this doesn't affect his view on native readers and singapore!!!! i hope he isn't demoralized! 加油!!!

2010-11-20T16:04:00.004+08:00

goodness... i cried like shit when okita shouji died!!! AHHHHHHH WHY!!!!!

no reason to watch anymore~~~ AHHHHHHHHHHHH! i've been bothered by it since jj told me and watching it myself is just ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! cry~ my mother must think that i'm mad...

2010-10-02T16:16:00.003+08:00

what is my brother's problem.

he is just mad.. i can't believe i have a brother like him. i needed to study and told him to lower his game play volume, he shouts at me. when my mom told him to lower it, he shouts at my mom. i really can't stand it when he shouts at my mom. stood up, went out, then he on his lap top to the maximum

why am i crying over this... it's not worth it.. why do i have such a brother? why? i hate crying, gives me headache and makes me sleepy. Can't study. been having headache here and there.. hate headaches..

what is wrong with my brother. told him that i have my final exams coming up. "you exam big ah" what is wrong with him... sometimes i really feel like slapping him over and over again... but he still doesn't listen... my mom can't do anything abt it..

what is wrong with my brother... he doesnt want to study and he drives me mad... i'm really irritated right now... i dont want to study for eoys.. but i have to and he isn't making things any easier.

2010-09-07T12:48:00.002+08:00

OMG! i'm such an idiot!!!!!!! argh!

today suppose to have psl duty! and i thought it was thursday!!! god.... i must be getting old...

shit shit shit.. i feel very bad!! arhhhh sorry cheryl choo!!!!

i'm so fail man.... darn it.. 3 years in psl and i make this type of stupid mistake... god.. argh.. Yanni! bite me!!!!!!! sigh... she's gonna wallop me when i tell her that i never go for duty cos i took it for the wrong date, tomorrow. bleah..

anyway, sorry cheryl choo! make ur life difficult!

2010-09-05T22:54:00.002+08:00

sigh...yawsihttididwoh!adjaijwijdhg!iasdfinfihshdidkjasj!

anyway, its the beginning of school holidays. whao...i'm annoyed!

yep.

do i have anything to say? neh... hmmm... i want to cycle! buahaha! bloop.

2010-09-04T13:24:00.001+08:00

so many people to thank~

THANK YOU ALL!!!!

2010-08-19T19:26:00.003+08:00

Ahh was just thinking abt the anime characters~ i'm mad...
kanda!
lavi!
mustang!
edward!
haruhi!
kaoru! hikaru!
hitsugaya!
byakuya!
okita!

bleah~ hahas =D if i had good drawing skills, i'd draw them all out~
i shall stop watching anime/ start watching new anime until eoys are over!
and i am getting super fat... shucks... i'm the weight ppl think i am~ i shall run every morning! since i reach sch so early! yes!
jiayou!
persist!

2010-08-18T20:48:00.003+08:00

i'm lazy~
anyway, though this may be a little late, thanks everyone for making the founder's day parade a pretty good one! thanks to sj and gg for tolerating our nonsense yeah! thanks to 44 for coming for all the trainings though they were reserves!!!! thanks to the rest of the unit for putting in the effort! yep!
i know that it wasn't well planned and luan4 here and there, i've learnt from squids and all through this experience though +)

yfc is screwed... i know it's partially my fault cos i haven been enthusiastic about it and puayling has been doing most of the work and i thank her for it!
sherlyn got the icecreams!!!! i really hope it would work out such that we can at least earn more than $6000 yeah... please please please pleaseeeeee
the band arh... i'm not very optimistic abt it but i hope it would still be a success~ let us get the judges, at least 8 teams, the prizes, the funding, the venue on the date we want, the audience... this is so much to ask for but i sincerely hope that it would succeed.
i really suck at yfc, or any other thing... can't prioritise and i can't make decisions, always let people down and feel sucky after that. but i know it's my fault cos i'm not doing my part well... darn it...

EOYs is in 6 weeks time? i hope i do well... bt2 marks were so-so i guess... not very well done. chi was below expectations... hmmmm

i keep feeling sleepy, and that's annoying me..

i want so much but dont give enough to earn it.

i keep watching youtube... i suck...

i want to know where i stand

people around have their own problems, sigh...

oh i just read glenda's lj, i shall comment abt one single part since i dont have lj and can't comment/ not sure how to comment. eh, i just got called xiaodi like 5+ times this year can... got 2 times is consecutively one somemore~ sigh.. but the auntie who called u xiaodi must have been blind... ur figure so good...

2010-07-24T22:26:00.002+08:00

my favourite character. how i wish i could run as fast as he can. run away from lots of things and be so fast that others are so slow, so that i can just be "away from reality" for a couple more seconds. Hahas. but wally has his problems too, he can't run away from it too. no one can. just accept reality man~

just do your best and live life to the fullest! yes! go peiting! yes yes! do well! bloooppp!!!!

2010-07-24T22:18:00.001+08:00

sigh... i want to punch something...

2010-07-13T22:39:00.021+08:00

F41L...
this is so sad and disappointing. I understand that it is our fault and there is no way we can argue that it isn't. we deserved the scolding but somehow i just feel argh! (dont know what word to use) I understand the seriousness of the matter and how the _ has the right to reprimand us, but somehow (maybe is my pan4ni4 hormones acting up) i just feel so irritated. Not angry, i have no right to be angry and we don't deserve to be angry cos we are really in the wrong. one mistake, 玩完儿了。。。i feel that the matter may have been blown up for a wee bit too much, though i know the seriousness of it and it is definitely our fault, no arguments there.

When _ _ us, a sentence _ said just really made me feel sad (sorry lack of vocab). we failed to enforce what we preach. Since the beginning, i know that i am not a very good NCO, but i have been hoping maybe just for a little, cadets may think otherwise. But after this incident, i feel that i really fail at being an NCO, a leader, a senior. Some squids say that they are incompetent and haven't done well in their roles/ as NCOs, but i would like to tell them that they have done their part well. They really have. I see how squids put in so much effort into something and destroy their healths over things and emo about NP stuff and they deserve to be recognised for their efforts and not be put down by some outsider....

A failed squad since sec 1 where we have atrocious U and horrible drills we havent change much about 3 years later. we still have ugly drills and we can still find something to screw us up just 4 days before pop. we are damn coool man! i dont think we would be let off so easily with regards to the incident... whether the punishment is serious or not, 这记忆要从脑里刷掉恐怕没那么容易吧。sigh... 300th post and it is a depressing one...

Despite all that has happened, i truly do not regret being a member of batch 41. we may not be bonded, we may not be pro but i just feel safe being in it. would pop change things? i hope not.

2010-06-18T23:36:00.002+08:00

was just looking through this autograph book written by primary school classmates. it's really nice to imagine how some of them look like seeing that i havent met quite a few of them. hahas. funny how fast time passes by. that book is already almost 4 years old.
whao
it seem's like it's only yesterday that we graduated and for the 1st time, step into the gates of nanyang. but things seem so different now.
i hate myself for not having a good memory. i can't rmb alot of things that happened in primary school, even secondary school.
i don't want to forget any one...
am i mad.. i'm having graduation blues like 1/2 a year before... actually no, since the beginning of this year. maybe all the tears would have dried up by the time of graduation and there would be none left for that day.
i very much desire the power in manipulation of time. i do not hope to go into the future, but to the past, to rmb, to see and feel the scenes again. i wish to stop time too. to just let me sian away until i feel like it.

2010-06-05T22:46:00.004+08:00

hehey!
yesterday was VCB! hahas +D it was fun~ clartan was being depressed abt it the couple of days before but see! it went ok! +DD my station was pretty sadistic and it was a little fun to see ppl totured but i was really impressed by some of them who managed to get under 6min15s and those who weren't feeling well but pressed on! thank you very much!
oohoh i like the poster me and suag drew! it was coupled with 43 and 44's idea but we changed quite a bit of it, quite evil. but i thought it looked gay and nice, i like the letter P's design.

squids wanted to eat out after that but i left. sian lah. quite irritating.. this few days i seriously have nothing to do on the comp or tv but i just don't want to do hw! how irritating is that! RARRR! i want to have my burning passion for studying and hw and school again! argh!

and my npo rep is seriously pissing me off! i hate him! he expects us to inform him abt everything and yet he doesn't return calls, pick up calls and tells us he isn't free, or doesn't pick up entirely... he wants us to give up our original supplier and get another, FINE! we got another supplier which had a sponsor. (thanks to puayling (i love her!) puayling rocks! she is super!
i need to keep my temper down...

anyway, that day after vcb. later that night my bro let me suddenly decide to let me listen to "reach out for the skies" hahas +D after that i linked to quite a few national day songs. like "home" "where i belong" etc. they really bring back memories. i want to go back to when everything felt simpler than things now. now there are so many more things to worry abt (or maybe i am the one causing more things for myself to worry abt, like not studying..argh.) suddenly while listening, i felt like crying.. hahahas i am weird... but i couldn't cry in front of my mom lah, so didn't. the songs just made me felt nostalgic. sigh... maybe in a few years time i would look back to now and feel sad too. that is a pretty sad thought.

oh i went to read my brother's facebook... i think he is weird... he's going on abt how life sucks and how he wants to go back in time... life doesn't suck that much i guess. it is pretty good +) just that we need to appreciate it more. i realise i am super clear minded. i can think things through pretty well but i just can't make myself believe it for long. or make myself do what i want to do... whao...

2010-05-31T21:24:00.004+08:00

i am never going to do this again...
i trouble myself only to find that i probably end up being blamed, though this time i do not feel that i am the only one to be blamed, though others may think otherwise.
once again, i have to go through this pain, again.
i don't think i can take another one unless i learn the bitterness of the society when i grow up, but now, i cannot take any more of it.

i think i wasn't in my right mind when i took it up again.
never foreseen that i would face this problem again.
i hate it.

i may lose confidence.
i may lose my enthusiasm for it.
i hope i can get them back someday. i hope.

why must they always do this to me?
everytime i feel that i have done something right, done something worth congratulating over.
they would tell me, "NO! we can't do this. we have to change it. "
it may have been a collective decision but me liasing and all, makes me feel irresponsible, makes me feel that i suck!
now i need to go back and tell people "OH, i'm sorry, my dear (whatever) decides that u are too expensive/ we have other plans, so we have to forfeit the goods that we ordered from you before! too bad!"
whao....i love doing this....
the previous experience was bad enough, i don't want to do it again. i really don't want to.

why am i even bringing all the responsibility of this action on myself? we had a collective decision right? but i had no reassurance that i am not the one at fault, but we ALL are. somehow i get where we went wrong but also don't get it at the same time. i really don't. argh. can someone logical come and explain to me, sort everything out for me? i am stuck.

2010-05-22T19:59:00.001+08:00

amazingly i slept at 6.00-6.20 on thurs and was like dying yesterday~
today there was open house! i don't regret going back to help out to give sch tours! i love doing sch tours! the parents that i got today were nice, though some dont really ask any questions! hahs +D then ms teo was really nice too! hahas +D chocolates were given to us! woo! but there were too many lah~
after that we decided to sing birthday song for sharon ma'am! but she never pick up~ sad.. sooo we made her a surprise! hahas! hope that she doesn't see this post before we do what we want to do! +D

2010-05-12T20:10:00.002+08:00

NPDP tomoro! jiayou everyone!
the speech is freakishly long, so nygh 的同学们，请多多包含！

2010-05-12T19:53:00.008+08:00

After the all the test and before the results:
Chem: A1已得愿望
Math: A1 恐怕失望
Bio: Aa还在盼望
Physics: A1完全绝望

FISHFISHFISHFISH... wth... i got damn low for physics... i'm damn sad.... i met mr tan in the quad today, he asked me my physics marks, he said our class did fine mah, then i told him yeah, but i didn't cos they pro pigs (i didn't say pigs then), i not. then sadly told him i got 29 and had 11 marks careless mistakes, he was nice. He told me that that means i could have gotten 40, so i'm pro too. aww. thanks mr tan. sigh... how could i have made mass into newton instead of kg! 6 marks neh! don't even have error carry forward. then the last question... the smart me cos not enough time, jump right into the question w/o looking... sigh... or not i know how to do one neh... sigh... take it as a lesson learnt i guess. need to allocate time better for the test.

chem was fine i guess
math was disappointing
i am damn annoyed at bio and physics...
chinese was fine i guess but zuowen sucked... then there's LA which totally pulled down everything... ARGH!
IH was fine.
RARRRR
total msg SUCKED!! rarrrr i want to bite someone's hand......

2010-05-06T16:52:00.005+08:00

papers this week:
chem: A1 蛮高希望
math: A1 可能有望
bio: A1 还有期望
physics: A1不用指望

HAHAHA +D jiayou ppl!

2010-04-24T12:02:00.003+08:00

OMG! i just watch fringe~ ep 19! AHHHH
peter got angry at walter nooooo!
the other day, i was just telling my dad that i wouldn't be surprise if the one causing all the trouble like bringing an army over is the walter on the other side getting revenge! since the wife on the other side saw that it was walter bringing peter away, and when the real (the other side) walter goes back and sees that his son was taken away, he'd probably guessed that there is another universe seeing that both walters are so darn smart!! AHHHHH! i want peter and walter (this universe) to be together again! ohno!!!rarrrrrr~ i feel sorry for walter not being able to have the chance to tell peter before he found out himself that he's not from this universe!!! i was soooo hoping that peter would forgive walter!! RARRRR

ok, enough feng-ing, i shall sadly go back to studying~
but still, OH NO! peter needs to understand that walter (this universe) saved his life! and and and he intended to bring peter back! just that his wife couldn't bear to allow peter to return! NOO! walter loves peter!! rarrr! hahas! i am going mad... the next ep is funny, walter tells a story~~ hahas +D

2010-04-22T22:00:00.004+08:00

sec 4 is taking a toll on squadmates. somehow, normally i'm a pretty un-feeling person, but reading some of their blogs just make me feel sad now. (apparently being peaceful, makes one feel more) everyone is sad/stressed about something. not just me. everyone has something to be sad about. but everyone just puts on a brave front in school.

everytime someone complains that she is fat when she isn't, i would think "look at me, you have no right to say that". everytime someone drags on that she is not smart, she is stupid, "i would think, what about me?" (i know some who read this might comment "u are not stupid lah, look at me!" ) but this is how I feel. i do not think i am good enough, so everytime i complain that i am stupid, try to understand a little. try to step in my shoes and feel how inferior i am with smart people around me that seems to be understanding lots but i do not. i'm sorry if i am sounding selfish for others to step into my shoes, just leave me be. even if one may not excel in studies, he/she may have other talents, piano/ guitar/people-skills/ dance etc. i do not. do not tell me that i am sociable. i can tell you that i am not. other than people i know, i do not socialize unless i am feeling gay and high that day. even to friends; i am no good at being a friend. i hate going out, i can't sustain phonecalls/ msn convos, i cannot sympathise but i expect my friends to understand me... how is that possible...
i feel so much today.
i realise sometimes i think very logically, i think so much more than others may but i do not know if that is good or bad. exciting...

2010-04-22T21:50:00.004+08:00

i had a sudden rush of emotion just now... it was pretty sad~ but a little happy was present.
i wish time would move as slow as my blogskin's creature would.
i feel peaceful now.. not as troubled as i was for the last couple of days. i hope this would last.
i wrote a page worth of things in my diary. i think that this is the only diary that i would continue to write into.
today, while i was walking home the sky got darker and darker. somehow, the darker it got, the more peaceful i felt. maybe because it got less "hectic" in a sense that i don't feel that irritated; the wind was cool, there wasn't that much noise, i could hear myself think and listen to it (i always think logically but i don't act so). i've been restless for this year, the feeling of not wanting studying is so strong within me. i asked charlene what i should do to motivate myself, i asked yunqi the same question, i asked jamie too, but i can't seem to get the answer. continuing to walk home, tiny droplets of rain started to fall, at that point of time, i really wished that it would just pour. and i would stand underneath and allow the rain to wash my restlessness away and gush all the motivation back into me.

i would stand underneath and allow the rain to wash my restlessness away and gush all the motivation back into me.

2010-04-06T21:37:00.001+08:00

officially proven hypothesis:
peiting can never do spa.... she'll always screw it up no matter how easy it may seem..
SORRY 402! yall cannot get lollipop~ sorry! sigh...

damn, i feel very fail...

2010-03-29T23:27:00.002+08:00

OMG! i think that i am such a screwed kid man!
i screwed bio spa today, totally screwed it up cos i really really don't know how to do! i bet i'm the only one in class who's experiment went totally off track! si liao lah.... i always suck at spa! shucks!

screwed again, cos i actually FORGOT to submit the YFC proposal form cos i fell asleep!!! LUCKILY, PUAYLING CALLED AND WOKE ME UP TO SEND! OMG what would i do without her man! I LOVE YOU PUAYLING! omg, she is so darn responsible! choosing puayling as the leader was the best decision we've ever made! omg! imagine how sherlyn and dmh would be like when they realise i never submit cos i forgot! even i myself would like be too ashamed to see any one! LUCKILY HAVE PUAY LING! OMGOMG... I CANNOT GET OVER THE FACT THAT IF IT AIN'T FOR PUAYLING I AM LIKE XP........ DEAD~ I DON'T KNOW HOW I CAN THANK HER! THANK YOU PUAYLING!!

2010-03-26T21:16:00.007+08:00

losing top 3 positions in finals didn't make me feel sad, but somehow, i'm feeling sad now. i don't really know why. Somehow, though i always complain about having trainings and all, i miss it. i really miss it (though there is a high possibility that i might start complaining when i return to it again).
reading some insensitive person's blog made me feel that we've disappointed nynp so much. so much to the extent that i really want to pitch and show them what in the world we are made of again. but sadly, there is no longer an "again" for us. i realise that i'd always regret not cherishing my time in ct after the entire experience is over, both 0'8 and 10. argh. on a brighter note, that ip pretty much made me flare and swore and the passion to win and to beat all others came back. though there is no longer a chance for us to be in the pitch personally, i really hope we can be good trainers and get back what we've lost. (this feels like an informal personal statement).

to comment on ip, and same incidences in 08, i really hope that people can be considerate and not recklessly flaunt their happiness which could very well rub salt (alot of it) onto other people's wounds.让我告诉你一个基本常识；网站是无所不能的，只要你写得出，我们就一定找得到。你们的行为只会显得你们人品的丑陋。即使自己心里是开心的，也应该把自己的开心放在心里。你们不要忘记，你们这一次的开心是建立在他人的痛苦上。我们在实际比赛上是输了给你们，但我告诉你，你们的人品在我们的眼里；或-我相信-在旁观者眼里，是跌到了无底洞，掉进了无底深渊，沉到了无光可触的深海里，彻彻底底输掉了，完完全全见不着了。。。即使见得到也是虚伪的。。。或许我现在所说的话，是一气之言但我深信，就算是10年后我再次看见那网页，我也会“火” 上来。。。
让我建议你，不要得罪人得话就得紧记小学老师就说过的“在做件事时得三思”的不二法门。。。好好加油。。。

after venting off my anger, i shall proceed on to talking about these couple of days. we'd probably be joining yfc again, but instead of peisi, we have puayling as our new group member! she's like the anchor point of our grp! haha! pulling us back when we drag off or sth, and focusing on what she has to do. a really commendable person she is! haha! sounds weird praising squids like that but she is pro lah +D
next mon, our sch is having a vvip where we'd be performing shi for, hopes that all goes well and i must say, though sometimes i might be pissed off at the sch, i'm really proud of it. go nanyang!
once again, i procrastinated and wasted my time away. sitting with liting really makes me feel guilty cos she's so responsible at her sch work. omg... anyways, jiayou peiting!

2010-03-20T22:06:00.005+08:00

NYCT'10 is over~
it's a whole new experience from NYCT'08 and each had its individual unqiue fun, laughter, sadness and blahs... this year, we achieved the 5th place! Well, i wasn't really very optimistic after we fell out, ok to be honest, i cried lah! haha! yep, but i sorta laughed it off 30s later, wouldn't be nice to let the judges see u cry right! i felt as though i was heartless during the prize presentation and all seeing that squadmates were crying so badly and i didn't even shed a tear after the one before! seeing sqdms cry brought tears to my eyes so i tried to look away.

To me personally, i thought that the result didn't really matter (some might argue that cos we've already experience the happiness of getting 2nd place in 08), i'm sure everyone tried their best. And as cliche as it might sound, it's the experience that matters. Finals was just that things didn't turn out the way it was suppose to be and that we didn't consider many factors such as creating a 4th component that was too complicated. Normally, pitching in a rainy day made everyone high and happy but the rain today, did more harm than good. pitching in prelims and finals used to be blur during the pitch and after, when i think about it. but somehow, the finals pitch today is so darn clear in my mind during the pitch and now, which is really weird. it just feels like the pitch didn't go fast enough~ idk~

this year's ct had many erm, _____ (fill in the blank, no idea what word to use).
1) was probably switching from team 2 to team1. experiences in team2 is definitely different from the experience in team1 but it was one that is worth remembering! similarly, team1 gave me memories that i doubt i'd ever forget! the transition wasn't a sweet though, hahas! had to get use to the big differences between the 2 teams.

2) becoming reserve? i pretty much knew that i was gonna be reserve seeing that i wasn't as cood and committed as shuning probably is! But this decision was pretty well made considering the fact that flag never ever lets us down despite glenda having an injured wrist. sometimes, i do feel sad when i think about not being able to lash but oh well~ somehow, i'm suprised that i don't feel angry at the fact that i sorta wasted my holiday trainings, cos normally, i would start complaining and feel irritated! but the experience then was one of a kind~

3) tjh pegging her finger! scary~ and me having to sub her~
etcetc....

my post doesn't sound sad, because i must say, i don't feel down now. we've done our best and that's that. all we can do now is look forward, come back as trainers in '12 and help the teams win it all.Train smart, Train hard!

thank yous to:
elaine, laijiahui, thenjiahui, lumjia, jialing, sharlene,weiting,khengfang, shuning, erntian, jiexi, glenda, khengwee, peiyin, nicole, jacinta, clarissa, puayling, esther, wenxian!
for: catching earthworms, laughing, tell jokes, making everyone high, doing weird actions, encouraging each other etc.
i would also like to apologise if i did anything wrong throughout the entire journey, such as being sian, being lame, missing in action, said offending things etc.

Our journey doesn't end here, it still has a long way to go, lets 冲刺 together!

NYCT took up a total of 9mths in my ny life and i dont regret it.

2010-03-18T16:36:00.002+08:00

haha! i shall post today cos today is happy day! WOO !!! its funny to talk to squadmates! cos we had lunch today at xinwang (which was super burst budget) and we started talking crap again~ it was exciting! topics include the usual like teachers, classmates, NP stuff, then would digress to sick stuff then try to revert back to normal topics! +D i was super gan dong when team1 sang birthday song to me no matter how uncomfortable i may have seem! hahs +D now i understand why squadmates don't want ppl to sing birthday song on their birthdays! cos one's blood vessels would dilate alot in the face +D buahahaa~
i felt happy to pitch today too, no matter how the result might be +D
tuesday's lunch was funny cos once again, was with squids! we went to KAP instead! and sat there for LUNCH till 5!!?! hahas +D the topics that time was much more erhem.~ made me super embarassed!! like what, pads, random ppl, sick topics! ayyo... i think only squadmates can have this type of conversation can! hahs +D but still, it was funny to listen! then i said repeated a word m--sth that made khengwee and jacinta attack me cos they said that it wasn't good to say that word! BUT I DON"T KNOW WHAT IT MEANS!! hahahas! cos i said "what does m-sth mean" and they covered my mouth and all hahahahahas +D wooooooo!
back to the happy today! we very nicely sat at the cafe or sth for like 2+ hours without feeling embarassed! hahas +D amazing man! squadmates are funny ppl!

sometimes may complain that should have joined a cca with more qiantu (if i do have the skill to begin with). but if i did, i wouldn't meet these funny ppl which changed so much of my life, brighten it etc. squadmates are the best~ (sounds mushy and blah but i mean it nia) though sometimes we may not be that close or what, it's just the feeling of being together and crapping and saying stuff that makes my day! 41 makes me feel like as though i do belong somewhere bah +D i think NP changed me quite abit! hahas +D squadmates too +D like being gay and all! hahas +D

WEEEE! heheh+D happy ppl~ wooo~ happy birthday to me! hahahas +D and thanks to those who have wished me happy birthday till now! +D weeeeeeee

2010-03-03T18:37:00.002+08:00

I am such a gigantic idiot.....
totally no self control.... lianpeiting arh.... nothing to say to you.... argh...

2010-02-28T03:10:00.001+08:00

我一定是疯了。。。又不要读书，又不要做功课，只会看电脑，然后上学有睡觉。。。好讨厌自己！！！！！！啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊

2010-02-23T22:43:00.002+08:00

ah damn, i can't concentrate!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SHUCKS!!!! RARRRRRR
bleah~~~ concentrate!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MATH!!!!
DAMNDAMNDAMNDAMNDAMNDAMN>>>>
ahh, what the hell is going on in my mind! clear it!!!!

2010-02-10T22:15:00.005+08:00

reading up and rephrasing the feminist movement is driving me NUTS!!!! there's just simply too much information! US itself can take up to more then 5 pages! OH NO!!!!
IH SIA!!! shucks!!! need more info! but the internet is pissing me off by not providing me with them!! RARRR!

had level dialogue with mdm heng, 3 vice principals, some teachers, councillors (did i spell it correctly?) and fellow exco09 during lunch! i was scary... it wasn't until i was called! cos i was the only one wearing jacket and mdm heng decided to point me out and asked for my opinion! it was nice that she asked for our opinion but scary nah! good experience though. i thought that the 1st issue lasted wayyy too long, but oh well, its a pretty impt issue~ i wanted to raise the issue on like having 10 mins break btw lessons just like the china sch system cos students are always damn tired and all, no point in forcing them to the next lesson where they blank out! but yeah one thing would be that we'd need to end sch like 1 hr late and students might not want it and cca would be affected and all~
also, if it were to be implemented, must make sure teachers do not end up eating into the 10 mins or there's no point in having it! hmmm, so many probs! but i seriously think its a good idea! hahas +D but there wasn't enough time to raise it so, nvmnvm, maybe can raise it at the next level dialogue (if there still is and we are involved).
it was nice that the management did ask for opinions from the psl and sexy exco like elena, joseph and all talked +D yanni the boob raised good points as well! ohoh, we were provided with chicken rice and drinks but i seriously didn't dare to eat cos i thought that i'd be pretty rude~ hahas! so i went hungry until after sch! +D ohwells.

ohoh, tomoro me and duanmug having question and answer game on stage! o.O scary! hope we don't screw up!!!!! jiayou!!! and thanks meng for buying the prizes and wulaoshi for guiding us through! she pretty much wrote the entire script! hahas +D

2010-02-09T21:31:00.004+08:00

these few days, i am seriously in a i-dont-want-study mood! rarr! sleep~~~~ i'm really disappointed at not having a lion dance performance. as in we do perform but is just like xing li to the vip and all~ so we pretty much trained for nothing though some parts were quite fun! well, as esther said, we can't blame the sch for cutting it short because they have a full schedule and we didn't go for the rehearsal last friday. But just to voice my opinion, i think that there's a wee bit, well maybe much much more than a wee bit, unfair that the sch cut our performance instead of cutting the rest like maybe for like 30s so that there would be at least 3 mins for us on stage... but esther does have a point at that too that the sch can't risk us messing up since we didn't go for rehearsal on friday~ idk lah.. this year is like prob the last year with shi cos yeah, the juniors don't do shi except simin and hsichien who knows a bit~ and we don't get to perform... good job

we had performance in the boarding sch which was funny cos they gave so many freaking oranges! so we had to like stuff them down our shirts o.O hahas!!! then immediately after the performance, had to cover ourselves with the shi! and attempt to take them all out! but the boarding sch ppl were nice bah, they did clap loudly and thus, felt pretty appreciated, even the auntie in charge (in pink de) was nice, she kept smiling at us and thanking us and all +D thanks, you don't know how much a smile means to us now that many people do not appreciate us! we lian in the netball court, ppl complain, in quadrangle, ppl complain, in field, ppl complain, finally in carpark... but also abit da rao st'john but they tolerant enough to not complain, thank you very much! dalt is gonna die... there is like no enrolment this year bleah....

back to boarding sch, yeah, then we perform for the china students, and they laughed and all so i was pretty happy! hahas +D then at the end of entire thing, there was pizza!!! hahas +D and MONEY!!! weeee! i obscenely had oranges in my erhem... and glenda tan the gross ate the oranges that 1) caoji plucked in np room 2) same oranges, skin peeled off by glenda tan who used her hands to wear shiku, LONG XIE, touch the floor etc, 3) was in a bag that was left in np room for god knows how long.... godliness..

ohoh, today me and caoji very de happy ah!! after all the hardwork, we are finally able to tiao tiao with shi!!!! OMG! hahas +D very happy! seeing that we've really progressed. from the start 连跳都跳不上，到终于可以跳上（with cao's hands on mine, took a seriously long time k!) to now can tiao on without hand and finally the one with the actual shi!!! AHHHHH! though we would still fail quite a number of times, it is an achievement man! at least she can stand rather steadily for the entire qishi can! hahas +DDDDDD　加油！

hmm, math is starting to get boring cos of differentiation and i can actually fall asleep in math which is BAD!!! gosh... i think i should start writing my np diary or sth and my NYAA! ohoh, thursday, me and duan mug going on stage to have this question game thingum! 大家要踊跃(is this the correct yong yue?) 地参加哦～
whao, longest post this year i tink! +D i shall go do my hw and the accursed la oral presentation thingum... IH SIA!! OH NO!!!

2010-02-07T23:28:00.001+08:00

I HATE HOMEWORK!! I LIKE STUDYING BUT I HATE HOMEWORK!!!

2010-02-07T01:27:00.007+08:00

有做回cadet 的feeling~
以前当cadet 时，想当nco, 现在当了nco，想变回cadet~ oh the irony...
hahaha~~

__ 有_____ 还是最好不过的。。。但已经回不了头了~

2010-02-02T20:56:00.002+08:00

things feel so gloom~
jiayou ppl!
jiayou NP~ jiayou 44 ncos~jiayou nyct1 & 2!
jiayou yanni and mari~jiayou exco~jiayou 402
jiayou peiting!!!!!
JIAYOU 41!!!!!!

2010-02-01T19:57:00.005+08:00

wouldn't it be nice if there weren't any homework?
all we need to do is go to school and gain knowledge and go back home and enjoy childhood (or in this case, teenage hood?)
during the week days, we'd need to worry abt homework and next day's lessons and cca,
week ends, worry about the hw given and how we can gain better results
holidays, if we don't study, 内疚感would kick in, worry about next year etc...
when can we rest??? even now when i play/ watch shows/ basically relax or what ppl would call slack off, i can't even forgive myself for doing if after i've done it... can we play in peace? no bah... sigh...
i think i slack off too much.... i shall control... 适可而止~ 好难哦~ 但不行也得行，如今竞争激烈，不读书就会落后。。。sigh...

2010-01-30T12:49:00.002+08:00

running nose! argh!! i bet is because of the shi's fur yesterday! rarrrrrrrr!!
so zi bei at the performance we watched in jiao lian's car!! o.O the shi like dog like that! very cute!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! siao liao~~

2010-01-24T22:38:00.004+08:00

today most of us went to a funeral wake. 见到squadmates哭，真的好心痛。。。自己也会不知不觉地哭。。。但是最痛得不是我们。你要坚强，41给你依靠。we'll be there to support you. 我们随时借你肩膀。加油。

2010-01-24T22:34:00.000+08:00

以我校南洋女子中学校华族舞蹈团为荣！加油！

2010-01-23T23:19:00.002+08:00

funny incident: today went to ntuc with my family! then while we were queing up to pay, the lights at the cashiers area blacked out and there was a "ohhhhhh" from the people! ok it doesn't sound that funny now....
i met kw at tiong bahru plaza!!! +DDDD weeeeee
R&R ahhh, haven do arh, die ah, gonna do now arh.. jia you arh!

2010-01-23T00:18:00.003+08:00

sec 4s feel overloaded man.. 1st time i see lots of squids so tired like glenda tan and nicole cheng!
sleeping is a luxury this year.

there was class breakfast today! fun! was taking photos here and there, wulaoshi made us a really nice pastry! then mr ang bought a cake! i'm sorry mr ang! for calling you mr tan! damn malu neh! cos we were just commenting about sth on mr tan, then i turned around and asked mr ang if he'd like to take a photo and i called out "mr tan!" shucks! i hope mr ang didn't hear o.O
then there was like 32 packets of milo cos lots of ppl bought it, my cakes weren't eaten at all! o.O rie, zhiyun and wangjia's mash potato was in popular demand! hahas +D then mr ang took photos here and there with his expensive camera! then there was class photo where mr ang brought his tripod stand o.O cool~~

after that was la which was not bad +D then after which it as cc2! i very de 对不起 wu lao shi! cos i was falling asleep while she was explaining! dui bu qi!!!! ahhhhhh! i promise to keep myself awake the next lesson! the teachers look tired too, jia you everyone!
lunch is one of the best parts in sch where we have mini squad gathering and we talk rubbish among squids! love it! can't imagine not havign it in JC .... i don't wanna split up~

math was like that lor hahs +D then there was bio, which was interesting lah +D hahas+D
CT, was not bad, atmosphere felt abit low though, then it was drills o.O yeah, then blind drills which was so damn funny! hahas +D yep~

squids arh~~ how to have life without yall arh? must teach me neh~ i think if i've never joined np, i would be so much more different and life would definitely not be as good~

2010-01-21T02:17:00.001+08:00

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2010-01-08T23:51:00.002+08:00

things are so complicated, yet easy to understand but hard to grasp...
it would never end~ unless we feel so. i think i know what i feel? do i?
i should~ i think to much, is that good? analytical thinking? maybe~
self-centeredness? possible~ true feelings? has it's fair fight in it~

squids are the best~ i can't imagine life w/o them, and its coming soon...

还在打仗~这场仗，因该永远都不会停止吧？但或许是这些无限制的战争使人生如此丰富，如此悲伤但也那么的美妙。。。

2010-01-06T19:04:00.001+08:00

MY BROTHER IS MAD~

2010-01-06T17:39:00.002+08:00

now feels like mid year!!!
在打仗的feeling!!! godliness, and its only the 3 day of sch~ nice~
feels like we've been to school for a really long time~

in 402 this year, sit right at the back where i might just doze off~~
changed some teachers e.g. physics=form teacher, from mr tan to mr ang~
co-form became wulaoshi instead of ms ng~
wulaoshi teaches us cme too~
LA teacher is changed to mr kaw from ms ng~
yep~
hmm, there's so many things going on whao....
funny thing: mr kaw told us to write on this card, improvement we'd like to have in LA
what i wrote: grammar, vocabulary~~~essay writing; basically everything o.O
nice~
jiayou ppl!

2009-12-31T23:49:00.004+08:00

its gonna be 2010 in 4 mins time! oh my godliness!!!!!
this shall be my last post of 2009! i will review 2009 in 2010 cos i'm too lazy and distracted to type now! hahahas !
wish everyone good health in 2010!
i wish i would be able to not slack off in 2010, get better results and have better self control!
of course, better health and 平安!! hahas! +D
to my entire family, good health, happiness, work 会顺利，平平安安！etc!
to squids! less squad conflicts, bond more, cherish the time in NP we have left D+, uopa gold!, good results to ct both teams etc!

jiayou to everyone！and a very happy and good new year to everyone!!!!
p.s. ahhhh 要十六岁了！！！！
-peiting signing off for the final post of 2009~~

2009-12-31T10:12:00.004+08:00

yesterday, well, yeah, had dalt for like 3 hours.
it was pretty exciting cos haven done it for such a long time~ and i realise my back aches cos very long never do.
after that we had ct training. honestly, yesterday was one of the best ct trainings and one of the sad ones.... contradicting~

no matter whether it refers to me or not, i will never, never forget.

Eight/four years later
Time goes by fast
Got my memories
And they will last
I try to keep it simple 'cuz I hate goodbyes
I try to keep it simple by telling myself that
I, I will remember you
And all of the things that we've gone through
There is so much I can say
But words get in the way so
We're not together
I will remember you
I will remember you
We're a picture in my mind
And when I wanna find you
I just close my eyes
You'll never be that far from me
So don't say goodbye 'cuz
You'll never be that far from me
I'm telling myself that
I, I will remember you
And all of the things that we've gone through
There is so much I can say
But words get in the way so
We're not together
I will remember you
You were there when I needed love and
Thank you, thank you
I never told you how much that meant
God thank you, thank youI will remember you
And all of the things that we've gone through
There is so much I can say
But words get in the way so
I, I will remember you
And all of the things that we've gone through
There is so much I can say
But words get in the way so
We're not together
I will remember
We're not together
I will remember you
I will remember you

i may be pretty cold blooded and don't feel at times, but now, i do...
though i might still be blur and unsure of what is the bothering factor, i do feel...
just as the lyrics says, words just gets in the way... my mind probably does tooo.... sigh.

homework... sch... sigh... i should stop slacking off...
final day of 2009.. doesn't feel very good~ but i must say, 2009 has been a year of many things.. tears, laughter, internal conflict.. etc..
hope 2010 would be better... thank you to everyone whose affected my life one way or another this year, esp squadmates. when i couldn't turn to classmates, squadmates would always be there, thank you. sigh...

2009-12-23T16:46:00.000+08:00

eeeeee i want to watch lots of movie!!!
i don;t want sch reopen! buahaha

2009-12-16T23:02:00.003+08:00

hmmm.... sigh~~
wrong??
maybe? haha
my memory is fague about the last time~
not sure if its the same~
i dont think so~
hmmm~

i very scared next year~~~~~~~~ shit~
i scared i lag behind~ but don't i always do?
ay.... i need to curb my siao-ness for random shows~
shucks~

there doesn't seem to be life in my hse...
my mom keeps having this rarrrrrr attitude (no idea how to explain)
my dad is like sian.....
both nags~
brother just play stupid no brain computer games
i get pissed off at every single thing!
what is the problem here??? i don't know... sian...
i can't sit still to study.. and i hate that...
argh....

2009-12-13T14:42:00.001+08:00

homework~~~

2009-12-09T21:39:00.009+08:00

wah lao! 那里不有blister, 在这里有！damn weird position sia! esp when the skin on top comes off= now.... hahahas!! i cannot squeeze the water out of the clothes i was washing! 家里的plaster不懂是什么烂plaster, say universal, but dropped out the moment it touch a bit of water and i rub it agaist sth! wth... hahahas +D i shall like go find the best plaster and put for ct or sth...
need to replenish medic bag's plasters! anyone 有any 好介绍？？？不哇哈哈哈哈斯！（buahahahas)！！木哇哈哈哈哈哈斯（muahahahas)！！

another funny part to have blister.... hahahahahas! +D exciting~~~~ cannot wipe my 鼻水properly...

glenda the amusing was sympathetic at my fate. glenda don't worry, ur time will come soon! like this friday or sth +D+D　buahahahahs, i am sadistic~~~

OHOH, guess, what is wrong with this studying area~~

yesh yesh, if one is observant enough, one will see a sink and a toilet roll holder~ if one is even more amazing, one may see through the table and see a toilet bowl！哈哈哈！

a close up!
i decided that this was the best place to study~~ i wanted to do this during EOY period but decided that i wasn't wise cos not tried out yet. so today, i went to try it out. not bad neh, the table's height is 刚刚好 and the flush button there can put laptop and i can lean on the glass/the toilet bowl. also.. i have a fan!!
the plus points about studying in a toilet is
1) i wouldn't fall asleep i guess ... if i do, i'll look like as though i fainted... touch wood man..
2) i wouldn't want to eat in there... cos i can't stop eating in the room though i'm not suppose to ...
3) i wouldn't drift off and do sth else like surf the net cos my hse no wireless.
4) i wouldn't move about.. cos there's limited space..
the down point would be that i keep thinking about me being in a toilet... feels weird..
hahahahahas +D
clarissa! you should just do sth like that when u decide to bring ur laptop into the toilet again!
ohoh, i have 2 plugs inside! so i can like, charge my lappy... +D
i don't think i'll use the toilet whilest i'm in there...

2009-12-02T20:36:00.001+08:00

me have no confidence for anything i'm thinking about right now....
man....

2009-12-02T18:02:00.001+08:00

hmmmmmmm....

2009-12-01T23:56:00.002+08:00

man... man.... man..... man...... man....... man........ man......... man.......... man........... man........... man............ man............. man.............. man............... man................ man.................. on and on~~~~
want bah. cannot bah....
i'm sleepy...

2009-11-28T18:28:00.003+08:00

i'm really lazy to blog about shanghai trip neh!
i shall blog someday! hahas +D i'll write about it in moi diary 1st! i have like don't know how many diaries.... hahas!
photos all uploaded! +D buahahahs!
feel like there's nothing to do now... i shall do my hw soon....
i need to learn my english properly....
man.... i should start studying!
me is lazy... but i dont wanna be lazy.. haha!

2009-11-12T00:27:00.002+08:00

!! me is flying off in a couple of hours time!!
wish me 一路顺风！+D
caoji called me just now!! hahas! funny person!! +D
okok, i should get some sleep! bon voyage to moi and all those flying! See yall soon +D

2009-11-01T20:55:00.005+08:00

oh my godliness! MUSCLE ACHE! worst muscle ache ever!!!!! hahas!!
was trying to turn around in my sleep this morning! then found out that i couldn't turn cos i was aching everywhere!! arms! thighs! abdominal! anyway, its just those limbs needed for one to move properly lah!!!! so basically= peiting can't more properly for the entire day! just now was trying to bathe! then realise i can't stretch my hand to the back! can't really bend down! cannot even sit on the ground/chair properly cos of thigh ache!! hahahahas!!
i bet is cos super long never exercise liao, then suddely hiong! result is everywhere ache! hahas! +D
i still have my sexy voice! but not at jia lat as yesterday! +D+D
ATC was fun +D though its only 2 days, seemed very chong1 shi2 +D
sorry ma'ams for the technical difficulty during campfire which caused quite a lot of leng2 chang3!
btw, i'm in CHARLIE!! hahas! so amusing! glenda and i were like saying we dont' want to get into charlie and in sec4 we want to steal all of charlians' rifles etc! but we ended up in charlie +D so now, i'm in BBC +D+D bravo bravo charlie +D hahahas +D
1st day we had campcraft comp! flag was a bit de screwed up cos the tension was rather bad! then i thought that the gadget was cool +D+D hahas! our explanation was lame lah! but it really is hard to take rifle out can! hahahas +D

then we had erererer.. wait, let me think.. shucks i forgot!!! hmmmmmm... when i rmb, i shall write it down! anyway, campfire was abit bad cos it rained!!! we were hoping soooo much that it wouldn't rain! man!! but oh wells, we had a romantic one in the hall! hahas +D with all the candles and pillow like "logs"! there was super alot of technical problems!! hope we didn't break the thingy! i was super sad at the part where we sang the ending songs! its even more sad then the pops! after that we had to clear up! hahas! ohoh! before that, when me and glenda had to bring the av equip up! the hall lights were off!!! it was so damn dark!!!! scary!!! aircon came up too! then we had to go on the lights! so we walked up to the stage and we screamed when we walked towards to stage right! hahas! decided to be brave and walk there after a few seconds! the moment we reached the switches, we totally spammed it lah! pressed every single button we could find!! hahahas +D after campfire, during clear up, me and glenda had to go NP room! DARK CORRIDOR!!! SCARED!!! ahhh! in the end still went on! hahahas +D

night walk was rather amusing! at first when i heard the route i sort of shock tio... go science block, walk to 401 toilet there, enter it, then walk up the stair case to second level, walk across classroom block to LT, then across staff rooms to NP room, then down the stairs to canteen!!!
lucky ma'ams didn't insist on 1 person or i'll probably run all the way to the canteen! wx was super scared can! hahahas! in the end i went with then jia hui (not sure if i spelt her name correctly) she was super brave can!!! every time ma'am scream/ jumps at us, i'm the one that screamsss! got shock tio by jomain ma'am and liying ma'am! hahas +D all the way, i was crapping to jiahui lah!! she was the one who walked into the toilet 1st too! i didn't know that the NP crest can bi4 xie2 one neh! when ma'ams told us to change into full-u i thought we doing drills neh!

after night walk, we went back company rooms le. i was seriously falling asleep! can't rmb the song!! okok, so later we went to sleep! then had fire alarm!!!! glenda totally jumped up and waked everyone the moment ma'ams blew the whistle can!! hahas! after fire drill i kept waking up! cos can't tie rifle to ourselves! so must make sure that we are hugging it all the way! there was a point at night when i sort of turned and i saw ma'ams outside, about to come in! not sure if its my imagination lah! hahas! then ma'ams sort of left or sth and i went back to sleep hahas +D

next day! PT!!! the running up and down the stairs thingum was scary! hahas +D always love the part where we look into the sky/ceiling after pt!! +D proud of myself for never falling out for pt b4 except for sec 1 which cannot be counted!! cos i was nose bleeding! i join back somemore neh!! hahas +D then we had the crime scene investigation! it was super amusing! +D started to have sexy voice liao! +D got quite a bit of help from 39 ma'ams +D i thought the clues were cool man +D

after that we had PT comp which was the damsel in distress! honestly i was really tired at the 1st station! the running around one! and glenda ran 2 rounds!! pro person!! ohoh! charlie includes: kheng fang, si jia, fiona, hui peng, puay ling, glenda, zi han and moi +D 40ma'ams: katherine ma'am, amelia ma'am and ying yun ma'am! yep! +D there was this commando crawl station where we had to rmb all some sentences! the sentences quite funny neh! mine was "tie twine to three tree twigs!" alliteration!! hahas +D i was suppose to memorise si jia's one which was he threw three free throws! my memory not bad neh! hahas +D ohoh! then when we had to get rubber bands it was super funny!! i was trying to communicate with this cute uncle! hahas+D then cos of sexy voice it was abit hard for me to keep repeating! but he didn't understand when i said i wanted 橡皮筋！hahas! finally! he understood and said that we should have just said 塑胶 or sth! hahas +D he had like more than 30 rubber bands can! hahas +D so lucky!!+D

after pt comp was the one where we needed to answer questions! hahas! quite fun man +D jia yuin ma'am was telling mei chun ma'am to test me general knowledge questions cos i won't know one! hahahas!!! +D funny neh!! but i guessed the flag one correctly!!! +D+D hahahahas +D glenda looks like she gonna die! nose like gonna drop out or sth!!! (during lunch) ! alicia was super funny!! can't say here! but she was!!+D+D during lunch, the weird solid fuel wouldn't light up! sorry to whoever the matchsticks belonged to because i sort of used 1/4 of the packet or more!

we had company time!!!+DD came up with funny cheers like
1) charlie 热情好像一把火，烧掉了其它company，别人见了我UH，就会对我说UH! charlie 你是best company! +D
2) charlie, charlie, charlie 我们是很行！你不能打败我们，我们也不会输！charlie, charlie, charlie, 是best company！ alpha bravo delta, 全部投降认输！ (ponyo)
3) 赢掉，赢掉，赢掉 charlie, 赢掉! 干掉，干掉，干掉，通通干掉！（脱掉)
4) charlie charlie can we do it! charlie charlie yes we can! (bob the builder!)
5) kope from slc: who are we are we are we, charlie charlie bect company!
6) kope from charlie 07:　we are charlians, 超级无敌charlians, 什么的比赛我们都会赢，其他company 我们都会赢，因为我们是best company! hahahas +D
7) charlie boomz charlie pau! charlie boomz boomz pau!
can't rmb the rest liao! hahas +D but yeah +D prepared for campfire! decided to do the ris low thingum! was damn amusing can!!! kheng fang was super embarassed at the way she was saying, "who am i? who am i? i show you!" hahahas! but i liked it! spas man!! hahas +D glenda tan was just pure gay! zihan and puayling were amusing too!! +D

cdc!!!! scary!!! ma'ams didn't want to go down for a super long time! i was sweating like a pig!!! SORRY yingsiu ma'am for dropping you!!!!!!!! i was super huang1 ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
somehow charlie won cdc! woo! good job! +)
cheering comp!!! +D proud of charlians man!! hahas! the story line went on rather well! except the ending part where i sort of forgot my lines! totally losing my voice hahahahas +D we could rmb our cheers neh!!! maybe the ponyo part have some hiccups yeah+D overall i really enjoyed!!! hahas!

by then end of everything! though we didn't get best company (bravo got it) we got the most commendable award!! +D i seem to feel more in charlie then the prev 2 years bah? not sure! but i'm sure all the years' atc was fun +D+D hahas +D maybe this year i contribute more +) was super high and happy at the final debrief +D ma'ams said that we were a really commendable group yeah +D happy neh! though it was only 2 days, this atc did make these two days a fulfiling one and it sort of feels like it has everything a three day camp could have provided +) 3 cheers for all ma'ams! +D 3 cheers to charlie!! 3 cheers to the entire unit!!! hahahahas +D

PSL camp!:
hahas! i don't think i did much for the camp other then come up with some of the clues for night walk and contribute ideas for ice breakers lah! hahas +D wasn't that good as a group leader cos i had to keep running away for exco stuff!! but i thought that the activities was fun! amazing race! i had a great time watching the expressions of everyone when i reveal the lame answers! hahas +D night walk was funny!! i was scared sia! i'm a person who is super scared of the dark one can! hahas+) ohoh! i learn sth about being near exco: i must never wear shoes and np jacket when we are filling water bombs!! cos the day b4 the camp! when we were filling water bombs we ended up throwing at each other and i got my shoes wet +D hahas +D and on the last day morning when we were filling water bombs, mari and steph sudddenly threw a water bomb over from the other side of the wall and hit me and yan!! hahas +D

ohoh! i shall describe some incidents of the day b4 the camp! ok! main event: yanni and i went to buy the prizes at plaza sing!! we ended up changing quite a few of them cos giant there didn't seem to provide most of what we needed! so yanni had to use her lame skills and crap all most of the significance behind what we bought! the funniest thing was that we had to buy like 6 metal cans of biscuits! when we went back to sch super alot of ppl were staring lah! i couldn't stop laughing when we were pushing and carrying them around! hahahs! we went "shopping" for almost 2+ hours neh!!! and lugged everything back to conference room! hahas +D then after that we had water bomb filling time! started splashing water at each other! threw at elena and pres=yan! and vice-pres=mari ! hahahas +D livia wanted to get thrown at +D exco=apples poured water over my hair which allowed me to style it! hahas they took a picture of that with the bian tai look of mine +) hahas! after that we went to bathe! bathe with yan! caoji later kill me! haahs +D no lah! not in same cubicle lah! only same toilet! dif cubicle! then we sort of forgot that the lights would turn off man! shan't say what happened after that! hahahas +D so we went back conference room to have 可爱鸡！ hahas+D then we planned and went through what was to happen during the 1st day of camp! ohoh! we had try out for night walk! just walk to the locations lah! then livia scared us unintentionally with her freakingly long hair! she went to the front of the photocopying machine and wave neh! scary!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
after doing some other stuff, we went to sleep! i had running nose in the middle of the night and there was a running cockroach! hahas! ms lye was trying to catch it but failed! so livia caught it! hahas brave soul man!!!
next morning! the psls abit the gan chiong man! came so early! we haven even finish break fast yet!!! and we were still in shorts! hahahas +) so it was just blah blah blah! ice breakers then amazing race. funny stuff happened in between and all yep! +D

day 2! highlight of the day! WATER GAMES!!! hahas! was damn fun!!!!! shanna keep throwing at me= shanna die!!! hahahas! was throwing water at her when i see her! during my station i was super enjoying can! was throwing water at everyone! squids were there too! cos have campdcraft that day! hahas! i got greeted lots of times! hahas +) then we had the mass game for water game which was to throw water bombs and get flags or sth! then exco was throwing at everyone cos we had sooo many more water bombs then the rest!! buahahhaahaha! after that we had the random throw one! hahahs!! i threw at lots of exco 10 like jamie!!!! liyi! shanna! cherie! cheryl! etc! hahas! cos they like to group together!! hahas! +D esp shanna lah! keep throwing at me! psls were attacking exco and exco was attacking them lah! hahas! they came to steal our scoops and water bombs!!! hahaahs! chaos man! water everywhere! yuqi threw at me and i threw back at her! super fun! hahahas! was throwing at every single person! even yanni wasn't spared from me!!!! buahahaahaha! pres no privilege during water bombing games de! hahas! +D there wasn't much after the water game liao! still have funny stuff happening here and there hahas! ohoh! when we went to collect lunch, steph and elena=elephant was sleeping on the canteen benches while i went to feng1 with squids hahas! was telling them jokes +) so fun to be with squids!
xiaoen helped us so much! along with many other sec 4s like katherine ma'am, lingxin, evelyn, noon! hope i didn't miss out anyone! love exco 09!! APPLES!!!WHOOOOOOOO! +D
oh my godliness! i used an hour to type all these!!!!

2009-10-18T13:48:00.002+08:00

hahas!!! my brother managed to find this primary school disc!!!
in primary 3, teachers came together and a couple of them sung and made it into a disc!!
AND! i still have it!!!! listening to it now, some of the teachers in there are not even in RV le.
i think mr loh left le, man... he's the teacher that made me love math!!!! +D+D

2009-10-13T15:34:00.002+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHH! my heart did a little hop when i opened biology textbook pape 148!!!!!
AHHHHHH!!!! totally got a great big shock!!!!!!
ok, feels dumb, but i was seriously, "AHHH!!!!"
for those with the textbook please open it up 148 and feel my shock!
okok! THERE IS A PICTURE OF A LEECH!!!!! RARRRRR!
i have this problem with insects man.... so scared of it that i don't want to touch a page with insects.....
so what happened was that i very excitedly flipped open page 148 and i xia dao cos my finger was on the leech!!!!! rarrrrr.
then i simply could not read on because of the disturbing leech there. after which i covered it with my hole-puncture. then my bro came in and i told him, and suddenly he went to push the
hole puncture away and i 吓到 again...
feels dumb! but its the truth man!!!!! same thing for page 194!!! yesterday i opened and 吓到.... decided to fold the page so i don't see the caterpillar... rarrrrr!!!!
this reminds me of STC!!! we were walking to toilet then squids suddenly shout say my shirt have giant insect!! was jumping on the spot man!!!!!! squids laugh neh!! evil!! huihan laughed super hard man! insect neh!!! its the scariest things after er... nothing!!! well dentist can be on par with it.. hahas!! okok.. shall go back to studying...

2009-10-12T20:43:00.002+08:00

very long never post!! shall just post for a bit!
EOYS!!! shucks shucks!! math paper 1 was dead, 1st time i ever cried for any paper.. hahas! okok nvm! got over it!!
coming up are the science papers! haven started on bio!! die le..

funny thing that happened:!!! hahs!! couldn't stop laughing!
my bro went to do big business in the master bedroom toilet and it ended up choked!!!!
(laughing now!) goodness lah!!!! +D then my dad had to go pump it or sth! cos we didn't have the pump pump thingum, my dad was using this bottle!! hahas!! i was like AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!
very gross leh!!!!!! the toilet bowl was like 5/4 full of water and it was NOT ONLY water!!!!
i asked my brother if he like lao sai or sth! then he said no!!!!!! iis my dad go crush it then it became all splitted up!!! rarrrr! (*still laughing)
so my dad left it there for a night, then the next day went to pump it again!! hahas!!!! +D this time with the pump pump thing! then suddenly my dad was like shouting to my bro, asking him what the hell he ate or sth like that!!!! hahahas!!!! well the toilet's fixed now, but i don't dare to use, in case it floods up or sth.
the time in which it flooded, my dad was'nt back yet. when he came back, my bro told him the toilet choked and 'flooded"my dad got a shock and asked if is (i've got tears running out of my eyes! laughing too hard) the "sai" flood all over the floor!!! hahahs! (ok it may not sound funny when i type it, but it seriously is can!!!!)

so yesterday or sth, i suddenly ask my bro, what was his 1st reaction when it flooded up. he said it was, "OH shit, the toilet choked!" 2nd reaction: "Oh shit, it overflow how!?" hahahas!!!!!
goodnesss!!!! it was damn funny can!
now i don't even want to step into the toilet!!! +D+D
~end of funny story~

my phone hor, a bit lousy man!!! just got it, and it abit siao liao...
one row of buttons disappeared (touch screen)
then i couldn't send sms out, like attempted to reply wenxian like 5 times all fail, sent the same sms to dad, then can!!! rarrrrrr!!!!!

man... must go back to studying... sian.... sigh... i want the test to fast fast finish! but i don't want it to come man!! haven finish studying!! i'll be like the last in class or sth... man!!!!!

2009-09-24T21:41:00.003+08:00

i just realised, my blog theme is the same as my socratic seminar poem... tv... irritating.. i was crapping can or not!? must do well in oral comm man.. my essays etc. all sucked.. sigh..
we got like CA2 mark sheet can i got like the bottom few in class for chem! not bad right! hahas +D well nvm, shan't ponder over it. anyways, my road safety badge is officially dead!! goodness.
EOYs are coming!! shucks man... i haven even finish studying! sec1s are lucky ppl lah! exams start on 14th!!!!??!!! where can like that one!!! sigh.. well maybe we had that type of thing when we were in sec 1 too! hahas +D
ok, just now in library study! was trying hard not to scold the sec1s behind us that were talking loudly... the irritating thing was that they chao2 for like 15mins then they left!?! they should have just went to the canteen to discuss their 3rd lang or sth!? i bet we were pretty noisy yesterday... well thats besides the point!+D
okok, yeah so back to studying just now! i was also trying reallyhard not the slam the dictionary onto the table.... cos the IH notes have like super a lot of words i don't understand can!! like after every 2 sentence i need to check once... sigh... my english is bad, having like 33/60 for the ICAS or sth like that proves it man! die.... what if i fail LA... shucks.. chinese also going nowhere... sigh..
my eyes are murdering me... can't see without specs! but when i put them on, they are blur!!! rarrr! then i rub my eyes!! then they hurt!! rarrrr!!!! man...
i keep falling asleep!!!! rarrrrr

2009-09-13T02:27:00.001+08:00

man... i started to play chinese chess and english chess!!
suddenly, i seem to be better at english chess then chinese chess.. goodness. hahahas!
anyway, i think after exams, i shall do all sorts of weird stuff, including improve in both chinese chess and english chess! cos i was playing over the internet and yea, lost all the matches man! hahas!! no bad right!!! +D well, considering the fact that i haven touch the chess boards for almost 1year, its understandable!!!
last day of hols le man!!!
the only thing i studied was quad and linear inequalities... die die die..
can someone please slap me and tell me to go study....

2009-09-12T07:57:00.001+08:00

OMG! damn funny! okok, shall say why.
ok, so i was intending not to sleep so that i can study through the night or sth, then in the end, the study room got invaded by a single large beetle and i ran out...
SO! it prevented me from studying in a condition where i would not fall asleep! i went to the living room, and started doing hw again and realise how simple the math question were +_+... but ended up falling asleep...
ok, so at 2+ my bro woke me up, saying that he off to sleep le, so i say orh, and i on the tv, intending to study again. but after 5mins i dozed off.
then at 5+ i woke up again! then this time i did study! after which i rmb that i need to go meet kelly at 10! so i chiongchiong go and bathe and my dad woke up. So i was chiong-ing out of the house already then my dad ask me what time i need to reach!
Here's the funny part: i told my dad 10. and he told me 现在才7点多而已。。。 then i was like huh? 不是8点多了meh!? So i end up seeing the clock as 8.50 instead of 7.50... if my dad didn't wake up, hahahas!! i reach super early... +D cool man.. hahas!! thats the problem with waking up early, the time pass so fast in my brain... +D

shall post abt NCOTC:
okok, so 1st day we had drills after drills after drills, had debriefs and all, got reprimanded here and there by ma'ams though we learnt a lot from it +D then we learn drill cane and baton and had lunch! hahas!! +D after lunch we had voice training and squadmates evil man... laugh at me when i command!! rarrrr! +O hahas! then we had revision on rifle, by this time, i wanted to take a photo of the squad man! hahas! it was like everyone had that stone face, ma'ams ask questions we "yes ma'am" monotonous one neh! i can demo if anyone would care to see. hahas +D but by the end of everything is super have 满足感can!! +D
so when we went to change, everyone went bonkers... hahas!! its like i started cramp on left foot and couldn't get my feet into my shoe, cos whenever i do it, it cramps... hahas! then aircon was laughing like siao, well, everyone was laughing like siao! then clartan say my hair looks like junpyo... damn weird!! after which squadmates started to talk crap and all, so in conclusion: CHAOs.. hahas! +D everybody went mad can! laughing for no reason!
okok.

DAY 2:
we had recreational training 1st! yanni run damn fast lah!! +D i wanted to join into the game man! but was the IC! its ok! it was fun watching too!
after which we had flag pitch!! well, the others had tent! +D flag was fun! +D hahs! then we had tiny lesson on flag and tent, then we had knots lesson! ok i abit bad at being ic lah, must admit! but i will improve!!! !! +D
then we had lunch and i had to leave for physics lesson that was damn irritating, but lucky got smart jj to help man!!
then by the time we got back, it was debrief le. after which we had individual talks with ma'ams +O so scary! but ended up quite fun +D, talked to jinghong ma'am! yep! then yeah, everyone went to the atrium and ma'ams gave a final debrief.
sad part: ma'ams told us to fall in when we were dressing i forgot to raise my hand leh!! SORRY ma'ams!!! i must be more alert man..ok,
so afterwhich ma'ams told us to close our eyes and sing chong er fei! and we didn't know how to sing... sigh.. 对不起ma'ams ！so in the end we sang np 英雄 and 当你孤单你会想起谁, it was a rather sad atmosphere, and ma'ams told us to count from 10 to 1 then open our eyes, so 10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1 open our eyes.. and ma'ams were gone. left tge medic bag behind and we knew what it meant.
So everyone fell out and thanked ma'ams, seeing their 背影离开我们。Ma'ams left behind a card too, and drinks for everyone, really sweet yeah.
i sort of expected everything, i'd rather not expect man, made it not very surprising... sigh.. well, squadmates started crying which was quite a rare sight, cos even wenxian cried. i felt sad but didn't cry. I abit unfeeling leh, so many squadmates cried, nic cried the hardest and i couldn't comfort anyone..
nic, sorry i didn't hug you when u cried yeah, its not that i don't want, it's just... er, i don't know how to explain. i feel itchy and all and only when u catch me at the right moment should i have the "i don't feel weird hugging" feeling. sigh... i felt quite bad not being able to comfort anyone and i wasn't crying also.. unfeeling creatures of 41.
Somehow, ma'ams leaving like that, seems to definitely tell us that we are NCOs le, no longer cadets. I really miss the feeling of being under the care of ma'ams in sec1,2 and 3. 但是不论怎么样，最终都得长大。
Thank you 40ma'ams for all the advice and care you've given us, though we may be irritating at many points of time and did lots of 让你们失望的事. Thank you for all your patience and time. 谢谢！！
当然也不能忘了38 and 39 ma'ams for their care and time in sec1 and 2.
Ma'ams 们！感谢您！！！

p.s. i shall take ma'ams advice and keep a dairy, actually i have lots of diary here and there. have both chinese and english one! i shall keep a permanent one from now on.

2009-09-07T00:23:00.013+08:00

happy birthday liwen!! +D
had fun at wen's hse, damn funny, her team mates very nice!
played funny games like the tookitooki thingy! had weird jokes! bro damn cute!
sister looks like her! had scary cheesecake! but was nice! had pizzahut!
duanmug was lame! glenda was cute! hahas! i met new friends like yujie (isit spelt like that),
jiaqi, haiyun! hahas! +D not bad! +D
then we had the telephone charades! pure joke man! was tearing when they revealed the answer! didn;t get to see her team's gift to her!!
LIWEN! ur gift from the brilliant NP clique hor! glenda tan, nicole cheng and lianpeiting +D
nice cookies neh! 300g neh! hahas! 3 flavours neh!!

okok, now to feel guilty.
today when i walked out of the house somehow, i just teared...
i really want to thank my parents for tolerating with my bad temper and nonsense
and though we not be that well-off, they really treat us soo well, and i feel really bad.
is like everytime we need to buy friend's present watsoever, ask from daddy and mommy,
and daddy always ask me if i have enough $. i know they don earn much and i feel super bad that they spend so much on us. esp after the china trip thing. i mean like its like $2100, its lots of money man, can use for super long, i should have just chosen local stuff.
i was super touch the other day in sch when i was telling my dad that the trip is expensive and all, but all he said was that i didn't have to worry, just go, he'll take care of it. i really wanted to cry. then the other day when my mom was asking him how he get the $ (as a joke or sth!) my dad said from now till november still long, he can raise... it may be a joke or real i don know but i really felt so fortunate but really guilty...
my sch fees already cost alot and yeah, i'm not exactly a very smart person. then i have to ask for $ here and there. china trip, i might just end up playing... why waste the $... man...
i promise that i'll study hard to make everything worth while and from now on, i will save up!
and when i grow up, i will support my parents no matter what. So if next time, i start to become some maniac that abandon my parents, someone please shove this post up my face!
just now, my mom was just telling me that she bought my bro a b-day present and if she still own me one. i wanted to tell her that she owns me nothing, the china trip alone along with so many other stuff are all already sufficient for my entire life's worth of present.
I wish for many things to come through, but my biggest wish is that my entire family, my dad, mom, bro, me etc, will all be happy and healthy and safe. there is no need for us to be rich, happy healthy and safe would do, life now is good, reasonable and i really love it. Birthdays have no need to be elaborate, i'd love to just have a simple steamboat session at home rather then going to fancy place that wastes $.
I would like to apologise to my dad and mom whenever i fa pi qi, esp to my dad, that is so tolerant!! and i feel bad to keep shouting at you for no reason. thank you and sorry!
I love my mom and dad and even my irritating bro. thank you for all that you all have given me, i promise that i'll try my best in everything i do. Thank you for advices, for tolerating with me crap and temper and helping me in every possible way. thank you. (so many thank yous x infinite) my family is the best thing that has ever happened to me and i want it to last forever. <3

2009-09-03T21:53:00.001+08:00

well, there's something wrong with the blogspot now! hahas!nvmnvm.
man, eoys are like less than a month away and i haven been having the "i want to study" feeling since LAST year's eoys... sian...
anyway, YFC is ending soon and we haven finish selling our chips!! SHIT!! yeah lah!! so if anyone sees this blog! buy from me lah! we are selling it cheap le!!
the project ending by this sun leh! desperate to clear stock...
today we had ncotc briefing! was rather funny, cos i couldn't rmb super a lot of knots! hahas! well, tomoro's campcraft!! +D
hmm, well we're watching emma tomoro cos we have like 4hrs worth of lessons without teachers!! +D but 1 hour is chi, need to do lian4 xi2...
i think the chinese novel very nice neh!!! by caijun! i shall find the rest of his stories and read! +D the twist is nice and not illogical yeah! one of the best chi story books i've read (seldom read lah..)
OHOH! today papa cooked! not bad man, not bad +D

2009-08-31T20:40:00.004+08:00

omg, today's teachers' day celebration was damn high! (though we weren't there for 1/2 the time)
XIAOEN is super cool sia!! best mc! along with the other mc who was super spas! and feiya and her partner! hahas! i think they seriously made the teachers' day celebration high can! xiaoen was damn spas at their class performance lah! her friend with spongebob boxers also damn funny!! +D
the other perf we seen b4 in the rehearsals liao! but still damn cool! glenda hor, during her perf, keep giving the "i am super sian" face man!! i think my class did well!! GOOD JOB 302!!! i fail one lah! the mike wasn't loud enough man!!! sigh.. nvm! its over!!! +D
the teachers' day awards were nice!!! quite disappointed that wu lao shi never get any prize! we nominated her for quite a few manz! nvm! 老师！我们永远支持你！heheh+D
ms van dijk got most caring teacher!!! WOO!! +D
the sch was damn high today man! so unlike the other years!! +D
so we had the celebration then we went to give psl teachers' their gifts! ms teo was damn funny! she could feel the love! +D
ohohoh! teacher's performed too!! so funny! our class party hor, abit the less food neh! nvmnvm!
then we saw 39ma'ams here and there +D+D
hahas! duan meng hao!!!! heheh! (raise eyebrows)
yeahyeah, then went with glenda tan who was going mad cos she saw someone, to pass up science paper! hahas+D
went back to primary sch, actually, not really lah, we didn't even go to the sch.. it was more of like went to the shopping centre near the sch! hahas! WHY SO EVIL? reasons:
1) the sch doesn't allow us in until god knows what time...
2) some teachers that we want to meet leave le!
3) we went to watch movie
4) i quite lazy to walk there sia..
5) everytime we go back, i get super pissed off cos they don't allow us to go anywhere... want to meet the teachers also damn difficult man!!!
hahas! met like lots of 6A ppl! but didn't talk! went to watch movie with yangyiming, yinghui and jiarui! +D watched The Proposal!
DAMN FUNNY!! we were laughing quite hardly at some parts like the part where they knocked into each other while being naked!! quite an expected story line but still sweet +D but the there wasn't much indication that the guy like the girl man! more of the girl like the guy! hahas! but still, it was good +D i want to watch the time traveller's wife!! who want watch with wo3 (alliteration worx!)! +D
then went home le! PAPA's birthday!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY! wish papa good health, happy life, earn lots of money etc!!! +D weee! went to ion to look see look see, then ate dinner! later eat tiny cake +D hahas! i love our birthday celebrations in the past man, esp when we were young. had like a miny party de! +D
hahas! tomoro holiday!! BUT need to do herstory by today! la sia presentation on weds neh!! rarrrrrr! nvm jiayou pt! don't slacks!!
lastly:
WISHING ALL TEACHERS IN VARIOUS SCHOOLS A HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY!
ALSO, A HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY TO ANYONE WHO HAS TAUGHT US IN ANYWAY! including ma'ams, parents etc!! +D

2009-08-26T22:03:00.002+08:00

i decided to post!!
okok! so i shall complain 1st! teacher's attempting to murder us before teachers' day man!!!
hw list: (due on fri)
Chem quiz
physics quiz (light somemore!! die...)
Trigo w/s
Chem ws 20
Bio as 8.2
IH assignment 6
ehh... now that i list out it doesn;t sound that many...
i shall add a few more:
Herstory
chem ws (not graded) 10
understand globalisation and light!... hahas!! okok! yep! i shall finish typing by 9.45 to start on hw!!!

POP: ok i must admit i didn't do much other than coming up with the idea for the pop present, but the original idea came from another place!! hahas! yeah.. ok after reading nic's post abt wanting to cry when reading ma'ams' post, i shall read too! (someday!) hahas!! but i agree with nic that our squad might cry even more man! spectacular sight to see me cry! so rare!!! the last time i cried in front of squids was when we got 2nd for campcraft (for joy of cos!) yeah.. ok! digress...

Must really thank squadmates for making pop such a success! esp when some never even sleep at all! i shall do more for the next big project!!!! okok.. yeah. so the guards game was quite a failure but i did have fun running up and down with suag and it was rather amusing when ma'ams told suag, pl and me to do gang1 guan3 wu3!! hahas!! yeah, then 39 ma'ams came back!!!! +D+D yeah! before the parade it was like tian hei hei!!! we were all praying that it won't rain! cos yea, its already quite sad that we can;t have ATC!! i want!! then want POP to go well mah!!! well though it did rain, it stopped for a while and ma'ams mopped up the floor. and we had the parade under the rain! felt good though! think NP damn zai man! do drills in the rain!!

yeah, so there was a bit of confusion here and there when 42/43 didnt have the song! hahas! i totally lost yi2 tai4!! hahas! yep! i thought that the montage was really nice! esp the song! shi nian! i think if this song was used during our montage, i'll just burst out crying or sth! i don mind leh! i hope our montage is sad sad one with everyone's pics! but our squad, not alot of pic lah.. yeah! the games that squadmates did was really cool too and the performance wasn't that bad!

42 performance was damn cute! hahas! romeo and juliet! 43's one was long! reminds me of our's last year! 7mins +! hahas!

40 ma'ams' one felt quite sad yeah.. this year pass damn fast man... ma'ams pass out le. Though we were quite indifferent this year about lots of stuff and all, must still really thank ma'ams for their patience and all esp when we forget rifle drills, give lousy bang when sec 3 le! etc. Thank you for all your patience and teachings ma'ams!

squadtalk was quite quiet here and now,( i think our squad have problems with squad talks) yeah, until the part when pl when to get jing hong ma'am!! DAMN COOL!! yeah! then cos she kong1 shou3 er2 hui2 our entire squad went!!cool sia!! hahas! ma'ams sewed this glur cum milk bottle thing! cute man!!! hahas! have letter somemore!!
regarding the letter: SORRY ma'ams for crossing your squad!!!!! the thumbprints was creative+D so we talked until this guy came to chase us away! so anti-climax one!!

yeah, overall,i thought that it was successful! esp the cake! squadmates are pro de...! yep! a
nd we are suddenly ncos le.. sounds dangerous... i think will have nei hong... well we already had a mini one!! hahas!!! we are pro one!

1st act taking 42/43!
ok its 9.54 already, but i shan;t stop!! so for the 1st time, we are taking cadets!! so yeah, introduced ourselves to the squad we are taking, which in this case is 42!! yep! so had a tiny squadtalk and then we had mini pt and then, with the rest, we had mini recrea! and we had punishment!!! whao! still having muscle ache man! can't laugh! so don't make me laugh!!! meichun ma'am hao kuai orh!! hahas! but we returned all our squad punishments le wor!! pro man! hahahas! after that had tiny talks, but we left 1st cos next day have cc2 test! hahas!

the funny part: we went to change and when we came out, the shutters closed!!!! hahas!! funny man!! if we're not wrong, 43 tried to help us open or sth? i not sure though, but yeah! ok! so due to experience in sec1 when our entire squad was stuck at the 4th floor during pop'07 and was lead out by jingyi ma'am at 8+pm! we got out of there safely by going to 2nd level and coming down the spiral stairs which is the only stairs that doesn't have shutters at night! hahas! (well from what i know off!) +D hope we have longer recre next time!! +D

cc2 test:
1 word to describe: DIE.... hahas! i totally didn;t know how to do the song4 fen1 ti2!! rarrrrr!!!

IH topical!:
well, i didnt really do much, but i think the rest are damn pro can! IH topical tomoro and we start and finish the day before!! win liao!!! i was falling asleep!! before that i had interview with sec 1s interviewing to be psls! hahas! +D can't say anything! +D

now: shall do my work and attempt not to fall asleep or watch shows!! hahas!+D

note: i am dumb.. i went to post this on ecstasy blog... hahahas! i realise this is abt 3 pages long in microsoft word!! scary!!

2009-08-25T22:11:00.000+08:00

i shall post abt pop and etc funny stuff like our 1st act today! after tomoro!!!
CC2 test neh!!!

2009-08-09T20:22:00.003+08:00

i am feeling pure irritated now.

2009-08-09T20:22:00.001+08:00

i am feeling pure irritated now.

2009-08-09T13:04:00.001+08:00

ok!
i am super amused by the webcam on the laptop man!!!
was playing with the audio effects and i could sound like a guy and a kid!! and lots!!
cool man! hahas +D
then there were all those weird facial stuff!! +D

2009-08-09T12:29:00.001+08:00

oh yeah!
anddddd:
HAPPY 44th BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!!! +D
(hope can see the s'pore, cos its in white)
OHH can +D

2009-08-09T12:14:00.002+08:00

heheh!
BLOCK ARE OVER!!
+D
i feel quite pro man, i memorised like 5 chinese poems yesterday!
but i hope i rmb them by next week! +D
i sleep alot... but i'm still tired.. hahas! siao one!! +D
i think i flunk blocks! o.O thats bad...
mr tan is evil! hahas! no lah. quite pro man! we finish physics blocks on er, tues!
he weds come and tell us he finish marking le o.O pro man! +D
BUT 3 ppl didn't get A neh!!! i bet its me! hahas! +D oh he's evil cos he told us b4 math!
affect me! i depress!! NO LAH! ok i'm being lame here, but i don care! +D
hahas! i didn't even rmb it during math! hahas +D
MATH was evil!!!! +D
CHEM was evil!!!!
PHYSICS was evil!!
BIO was evil!!!!
LA was evil!!!
CHI was evil!!
IH was super evil!!!
hahahahahahahs!!! +D

today went to redhill, what i saw today made me quite happy.
its was like, there was this great event if i'm not wrong is guan1 yin1 dan4 yeah,
so many folks were praying and all, and the market was filled with soo many ppl!
it just feels, how do i say it, erm.. not "modern", anyway i just feel like we should all
still be like that. Not caught up with work and all.. yeah..
i dont think anyone understands what i'm typing.. but no matter!
I feel as though i have lots of stuff caught in my brain and
i can't seem to reason myself!! ARGH... i shall learn to let it go slowly..
i can't seem to tell ppl stuff. its just me.. i just bottle up everything i think..

OK! i am growing super fat can!!!
i keep eating!! NON-STOP!!!
GOODNESSS.....
i SHall stop eating so much! rarrrr!
exercise!!! i shall do that every monday or sth!!!! I WILLL!!!! RARRRRR!!

2009-08-04T18:40:00.003+08:00

OMG!!
I HATE GRAPHSS!!!
ESP TRANSFORMATION OF GRAPHS!!!
HORRIBLE SUBJECT!!
MS KANG!! CANNOT GET 1 LAH!!!!
RARRRRRRR!

2009-08-02T16:16:00.002+08:00

internal conflict.....

Crash and burn:
When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please to tame your wild wild heart
I know you feel like the walls are closing in on you
Its hard to find relief and people can be so cold
When darkness is upon your door and you feel like you cant take anymore
Let me be the one you cal
lIf you jump Ill break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
Youre not alone
When you feel all alone
And a loyal friend is hard to find
Youre caught in a one way street
With the monsters in your head
When hopes and dreams are far away andYou feel like you cant face the day
Let me be the one you call
If you jump Ill break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apartI can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burnYoure not alone
And there has always been heartache and pain
And when its over youll breathe again
Youll breath again
When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please
To tame your wild wild heart
Let me be the one you call
If you jump Ill break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apartI can mend a broken heartI
f you need to crash then crash and burn
Youre not alone

2009-07-27T17:27:00.002+08:00

RAIN!!!!!!! as in literally rain not the korean guy rain..
hahas! heavy sia! was going home, then rain!!
called my bro, didn't put the phone properly.
went to find my yeye, but i think he sleeping or sth! hahas!
then in the end had to run across!!
should have ran across in the 1st place man!! waste my time!! hahahahas +D

i will fail crime prevention test for the second time manzz!! sian.. need to take again!
but the prob is not taking again! is i scared fail man! 2nd time le! next time is 3rd! o.O
i was soooo super confident that the vandalism thingum is 2 - 8 strokes sia!! in the end its 3-8 strokes and theres more than one of it.. +_+..
die.... seriously man! i can't rmb the punishments!!! RARRRRRRR!!!

2009-07-16T21:11:00.001+08:00

TAN YAN NI! U WORK BEST WITH ME MAN!
SORRY THAT I SIAO AND WASN'T THINKING RIGHT!
U ARE THE BEST PARTNER!!!
+D +D +D

weird..

2009-07-15T21:33:00.004+08:00

Today is sorta a weird emotions day.
ok so 1st thing is cos yea, since its over, can talk abt it le +)
presidential elections for PSL yeah.
Obviously didn't get through yeah.
Its like, i expected it to be this way, i know that i wont' get through,
i know what the teachers would say,
i know that the others are much more eligible than i am, way b4 this.
But is just that, though i say that i've already experience lots of failures etc, but
it still feels quite sad yeah. i cant convince myself.
but i definitely won't cry over it yeah. i wasn't that sad that i didn't get president,
but quite disappointed that i can't get vp yeah. hahas! since its over
i shall just say, even if i could, i don want be P yeah! wanted vp!! hahas +D i was
telling squids if the interviewer had a question like "why do u want to be president?"
my reply: "I don want be president neh, i want to be VP" haha +D
but its ok, need to accept it man!
what ms teo said made me quite happy yeah +D me and yan really did a good job in human
resource +D though i need to be a little more serious during interviews! i know!! normally i
quite serious one neh, don know why that day a bit siao... but wats over is over, shan't regret yeah.
What yanyan said made me gan dong yeah. cos is like she was saying that we are the best partners ever, and she feels sad that we can't be working together if she were to be P or VP.
thank you yeah yanyan +D hope u get through+D i vote for u man! u are a smart peeg! +D
and u own me one can of BOSS coffee +D
maybe another thing that i'm sad of is just like, we'll still be keeping the exco nametags, but
in actual fact, we're not doing anything! a bit weird. and i'll definitely miss not having insider info like when is spot check and stuff! hahas +D okok! next:

got scolded by mrs tieh yeah!
cos we were lying on the podium. SORRY suag and pl!
yeah. shan't say much here.

today, stayed for 4hrs + to wait for interview for NP and ended up not getting interviewed.

oh, shooting team 1 got 1st +D
though i seriously think i didn't help cos i was like the last person of all cos i got like a score of 87 or sth... yeah.. but its ok, the grp did well. i shall an wei myself like i help the team get through
prelims or sth +D
TEAM 2 did well too!! 4th sia!!
i think they more pro then us can! is only that day shi sui zhun! +D
glen u are pro one hor! (don rebut me on this)
nic also hor! oh u didn't cry! hahas! (don rebut me too)

yep, so thats pretty much my life for today +D
oh i was like listening to Crash and burn cos i suddenly have the urge to listen to it.
and i was like thinking, the last time i heard this was in sec 1 during psl camp.
realise the psl left quite an amt of memories yeah+D

2009-07-04T05:06:00.002+08:00

today, or technically yesterday,
was sooo super screwed!!
my bio haven really annotate, chem the disc late, chi, i don;t know what happened!!
i super cha1 can!!
TIME MANAGEMENT!!! ROAR!!!!!!

2009-06-26T18:05:00.002+08:00

hahas+D i am in bukit batok lib now!!
wanted to do hw but ended up doing administrative stuff!! rarrrrr
tonight i diedie also muct finish
1) IH where i have simply no idea where is the difference in the 2 sources!
those who know can tell me! rarrr
2) Bio SIA
3) if time or my eyes allow, math written task!!!!

hahs+D i want to finish my work by sat!! i don want rush on sun!
yfc meeting so benben in the middle of the day with a stupid time of 2pm~
i want to change it to 10!!! rarrr. i want to finish my stuff and stop procrastinating!!
seriously, must stop slacking yeah,
cos is like my dad was like lecturing me on my way to st lukes saying that i haven finish my hw,
haven even revise my work,
always go for cca and yfc..... next time wont let me join this type of stuff and all.
he is right yeah, i really didn't study at all, and blocks is like
august 1st week!!! die liao lor!!!
any this block is not that type of long long 1 that type!! is like suddenly really one whole block
one can!! so if don study confirm gua4 one!!!
HW!!
i left so many questions blank!!
SIA!!!
haven completed a single one!!!
rarrr! i shall go home now, supposed to have gone home in last 5mins...
hahas+D

ecstasy, yfc

2009-06-24T23:57:00.014+08:00

ECSTASY!!!
hahas+) well, i really like ecstasy yeah+)
during the camp, i must say that i didn't contribute much but i did have a great time,
made new friends and all!
Must say that i was really tired during the couple of days esp the 1st day when i slept really late the day b4! but fun yeah+) quite a disappointment when we didn't get to jetty jump cos i was really looking forward to it yeah.
camp fire performance was funny and i zao xia! hahs+)
ppl in ecstasy are very spastic!!! goodness!! hahs+)
today we have an outing yeah+)
ppl who went are: pn (who hosted the bbq! so name must put 1st! hahs!), jaslyn, rebecca, xyn yee, sonia, daniel, lim jing, marcus, jiang ning, johnny, jeremy sir, glenda tan, yanni, and me! hahs+) did i miss out any one!? hahs+)
quite funny! was raining!! hahs+)
guys were cooking and rebecca is ill! still go out!! daniel and his "WELL DONE!"
pn with his cheese with bacon!
jaslyn with her super-highness!
hahs! glenda was like calling pn papa! and johnny is his gay wife, so is glen's mama!! hahs!
then in the end had a brother who is jeremy sir who inherited johnny's genes (u know why!?)! hahs+)
jiang ning and marcus were bbqing all the way man!! thanks for the food!!
sonia brought games! but we didn't play but played jeremy sir's murderer game!hahs!
lim jing ate the food! hahas+) bought extra for him!+)+) he was so innocently framed by all of us as the murderer!! hahs+) end up xyn yee was the murderer!!! i guessed her lor!! but in the end change to tanyanyan cos no one was breaking tie!!! rarrrr!! hahas!!!
entire bbq quite funny! hope we can have another outing with MORE ppl! don want less yeah!
hahas! we saw pn's younger self photo! jaslyn say he looks like girl! hahas! we concluded that it is genes (for those who get it!) hahas+) his house have super lots of paintings yeah!! hahs!!
everyone was super high can!! hahas+D so happy+)+) and glenda even called pn's mom ah ma!!! hahas!! so funny!!! glen was like telling pn's mom that "wo3 shi4 ta1 de4 nv3 er" hahas!! amusing!
Well must thank glen's grandparents and papa for hosting us! hahas+) great food and sea coconut dessert!! hahas+) 3 of us had to leave by 9+! rarr! but had fun!!
the bus-stop was super pian1 pi4 and dark!!!rarrr!! i pa4pa4!! i super scared of the dark one can!!
hahas+) apparently jaslyn also! hahas+)
ECSTASY!! heheh+)+)

well, i shall go on to emo talk!
On this post abt YFC, to anyone who sees it, please do not comment/tag on it or talk to me abt it, its over and just a lesson learnt.
Well its been approx 5 weeks since we began YFC yeah!
Lots of different emotions coming in.
I must say i really felt really angry for quite a couple of days.
Just can't seem to control my temper well, especially at home.
Is like mentor and NPO rep talking and well, i keep having the bushuang look on my face
even justin and shersher said so!
I don know why lah, but is just that i just seem to get pissed yeah.
Sometimes maybe because they do not understand what i am talking about.
Or i just get really angry when they say that maybe the amount earned is pathetic.
Is not like we didn't try yeah! But i really cannot bring myself to do what mentor does when he
sells stuff, i tink i got quite traumatised by it yeah.
I know that mentor and npo says that we need to commit more, we need to prioritize.
Well, i really feel unjustified with this statement yeah.
Is like for the entire holiday, during SLC, we called, we did this and tat, got rejected and all.
during NP courses, i had to ask sir to answer calls and call various calls right after the course, shersher also! week 3, meng and sher had to do it w/o me and sophia, and is like the moment i came back from camp, i had to call ppl and all and thurs and fri was all yfc. shersher and meng also called and emailed and did so much despite their busy schedule of FOAs and trainings.
I know that sometimes, i tend to slack a bit too much and end up not doing anything but i really think that we've done lots for yfc and we have hw too.
I mean, i'm not like some kid prodigy and i am really blur at stuff, all my sias are not done,
hw not a single one completed cos questions are left blank and most of the things are due on t3 wk1. Some group mates are also overseas yeah, i don blame them for being overseas yeah, just to say that a bit hard to complete stuff with them overseas yeah esp chi sia when the info is with yintong. So i seriously don think that not having sales for the rest of the week is not committing enough. there is no point in standing at a place for 10hrs when there isn't many people yeah.
And, we are just young adults! I know this is no excuse for not being able to raise much but just think about it, would u rather take a teenager more seriously or an adult with marketing skills?
It's really irritating when people just walk off and heck care what in the world u have to say when u are just a kid but are willing to just stop to listen to an adult! I just really think that some adults don't take kids seriously.
Sometimes, i feel really guilty towards npo and mentor yeah. I keep giving them bushuang face.
They have really done lots for us. I mean like, though my mentor says that we are really good to be able to get sponsors from kraft foods. But just to think of it, in actual fact, my mentor was the one who got it yeah. Npo has been providing us with volunteers, boxes, logistics, equipment, contacts. etc. yeah.
And moreover i am really super blur yeah. There was once i even got my mentor and this person that we were contacting into a quarrel yeah. If i had just did it correctly and with more confidence, it would never have occurred.
That day when they quarrelled, i felt so bad. i didn't want to listen, didn't want to see. Got out of the room. It really scared me yeah... when they called for me, i had to sit between my mentor and npo. yeah, so they talked to me about how we always need to prepare before hand and all.
then my mentor got a call and my npo talked to me. i don know if he saw but i was seriously going to cry yeah. managed to hold it back and not let the tears fall. mentor was talking to contact and saying that miscommunication and all yeah.. i know he didn't mean anything yeah, but to me it just sounded that it was all my fault yeah.. really wanted to cry... but didn't...just took it as a lesson learnt.
I know that our group is quite slow in progress but i will say it proud that we are actually putting lots of effort into this project already. But no matter what, if u have to make me prioritize, my sch work will definitely come 1st.
Amount earned would just be the evidence of ones' hardwork but what we truly gain, is the experience and lessons learnt. i believe i've already learnt and will continue to do so.
i think i'm really someone who can't cope with too many things at once,
But i'm really glad i've got a friend to talk to and understand yeah. thank you for listening to me talk crap and rubbish and wasting your time!
Need to thank lots of volunteers too for coming down to help!
hope everything will go well.

p.s. hahs! so long nvr post with title le!!

2009-06-14T15:30:00.003+08:00

I don't even know if i am sian or excited about STC yeah.. hope it'll be fun! i haven even started packing... sigh...

I HAVEN STARTED ON HW!!!! RARRRRRR!!!
used all my time to do YFC! hahas+) shall start doing today!
i think KAP will become like my main meeting place neh! hahs! everytime have meeting for YFC
we meet at KAP.
yesterday, was at KAP for like 6hrs with shersher and mengmeng talking and talking, before that had meeting with mentor! hahas+) i drank so many cups of tea!

yesterday was cold... somehow i had so many things running through my mind when i was taking the bus...

Well, we may not be as fast as some other groups i YFC but i think we really learn a lot from this project. I mean, i'll never call krafts in my entire life unless my work next time requires me to do so! hahs! and kraft foods s'pore is really really nice. thank you very much.

we'll be selling our products for the 1st time at jurong point on 20th of june! pls come support!!
i really hope all goes well!

2009-06-06T23:44:00.001+08:00

What is wrong with me man! ARghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
RARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!
I WANT TO STAY IN SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! RARRRRRRR

2009-06-03T23:10:00.002+08:00

ok i've wasted like 5 days of my hols liao.... sigh...
i have no idea why i keep feeling so tired man! i didn't even exercise or do anything that would render me sleepy! Homework list looks mad...
i feel very unaccomplish.. why?:
1) Math, i did halfway and realise i have lots of questios unanswered
2) YFC, ahhh! but mentor and daniel really helping us alot+) merci beaucoup neh
i think by the end of YFC i'll have a really long list of reflection!
sigh... i keep watching random shows on youtube, i should seriously stop that...
i want to go for fencing this sat!! but have YFC meeting.. sigh.. so disappointing, cos i was really looking forward to it D+ but YFC more impt so yeah.

SLC:
well, i'm in orionis yeah, my group ppl are nice hahs=)
yesterday was all fun and games and today was all action paper and serious stuff. But i thought that today was actually much more fun than yesterday and time passed really fast! Well using our brains beat walking around the very big hwa chong! hahas+)
funny stuff: An jian is afraid of insects! hahs+)
today while we were in the class brainstorming, the sch decided to have the insect smoke thingum! so we closed all the windows but the smoke ended up coming in from the top! it was quite a spectacular and funny sight hahas+) like smoke flooding into the class rm and everyone evacuating! hahas+)
we had a budget debate today and we were to address ourselves in 3rd person meaning "this participant" would like to blahblah.. hahas+) quite interesting+)

Friday is shooting prelims and i never even train! i can't even find the hand thingum that ma'ams lent us! need to buy to return neh! sian.. nvmnvm... hope i don't screw up and end up dragging team 1 down! sigh..

COFFEE NOT VERY EFFECTIVE NEH....

2009-05-30T00:51:00.005+08:00

money is a chain that we all can't break free of.
What does it do? It locks up our dreams, desires.
Dreams are just an amazing thing, i really like to dream. But bursting this dream is a really painful thing that one feels. i really want my desires, things that i want to do to come true but i doubt they would.
Studying is important, but what is its purpose?
to find a job that pays well? I want to specialize in something that i like! i want to stop being a jack of all trades but a master of none. But i don't think this is possible.
sometimes, i really don't understand. Some are given the opportunity to have an amazing skill such as knowing how to play the piano, but why do they hate it so! i can't even try something new! isn't it amazing to be able to create music just with the movement of one's fingers! Why cant' people understand that they are so lucky to be given the chance to learn.
Well, i can't speak for others. Though i have the habit of "a minute interest" and i have the tendency to procrastinate but i really want to try new things for a change.
i have no idea where this post is driving towards. it's probably gibberish talk.....

2009-05-24T13:54:00.002+08:00

wooooooo! open house is over! xin ku squadmates liao! hahahas+)+)

actually i don knw wat to blog abt lah...
hahas+) ohohoh! funny stuff like i forgot to bring my shorts and end up wearing my berms inside Pt pants ending up with a very tight feeling!! hahahas+) i was telling glenda that my muscles grew and she gave me that diao look! hahas+)
actually the pants was so tight cos i sort of wore it the wrong way!!! goodnesss!!! i don think i would ever have noticed it! i saw it cos i wanted to show jac jac that my skin was red cos can see through the hole on my pants to the berms (which was spastically red) hahahahaas+)
then i realised that my pants don have the hole anymore!! so i check check and realise that i wore my pants the wrong way+) hahaha! thats why so tight!!
so disappointing, muscle never grow!!!!

we did shi1!!! woooooo! very long nvr do le!!! feel so happy doing it!! its like dian jing all over again with glenda and peiyin by our side and all+) hahas+)+)+) woooo+) hope we'll do shi soon!!!!!
we bribe ppl with sweets!! buahahahaas+)

glenda and i found out sth very amusing during gu3! hahahas+) kept laughing! a bit evil lah but still funny mah!!!!

OO was fun hahahas+) the SJI ppl were damn fast can! esp the first 2!! cikang and jing han i think hahas+) they were like at the opp side of the sch while we still outside classrm block!! hahahas+)

2009-05-17T22:18:00.002+08:00

whaaa!
after bathing today! cos i thought very warm! so i put the prickly heat bought for OBS and i had the weirdest sensation!!!
cos i think i put quite a lot yeah, so i had this really burning feeling! i was like AHHHHH! BUT
it was also so damn cooling that i was having goosepimples!!! weird sia!
to try, these are the following steps:
1) Bathe
2) Put on thick amts of prickly heat all around ur body
3) have weird sensation
4) blog
hahas+)

2009-05-09T15:48:00.004+08:00

yesterday was dalt dinner!
hahs+) we were like for feng1ing than eating! hahahas+) i doubt we ate $30 worth of food! hahas+)
esp swagswag! ate like pudding only! good job! hahas+)
yesterday was damn freaky can! i wore almost same shirt as clarissa hahas+) so we like being gay together+) there were lots of pairs man!
nic and alicia's shirt looks like almost same pattern and material
yanni and caoji had white shirts with hoods
jj, me, clar all have that button on sleeve thingum hahas+)
than lynn and peiyin are like dabian xiaobian hahas! i nvr realise until squadmates say! hahas+) cos lynn wore yellow and peiyin wore brown hahas+)
but after that, lynn and wenxian (who was late for like 20mins plus i think) who both wore yellow+)
hahas+) then during dalt dinner we were all going crazy! hahas+)
after dalt dinner we wanted to take neoprints but ended up playing arcade! hahas+)
lynn and caoji are soooooo pro at the feet dancing thing! hahas+)

2009-05-07T20:07:00.003+08:00

OKOK, i am pure ben4 ben4 can!
yesterday, we had bio block! i very pro can! i mistook passive transport as active meaning to say i thought going down a concentration gradient is active! smart liao lor! so in my MCQ, i put osmosis as active! li hai liao lor! BUT the funny thing is, in the 2nd part of the paper, i wrote correctly neh. i wrote that facilitated diffusion is passive while active transport is active!
GOOD JOB MAN! i am the best +_+...

ok than today, ms kang came into our class and let us see our msg for math cos she's not done with 308's one so can't return the paper. Ok so the MSG is 1!!!!! WOOO! hahas+)
BUT the scary thing is that when she showed us our average i was like li hai liao lor! i can never get de! The mean is like what 57!?! what kind of average is this man! and the lowest is 47!!!
Whao! then she said quite a couple of u all got 64 but i can only give 60! whaaaa! why so li hai one!!!! freaky!!!!!!!! peiting can never achieve such a score sia..... even getting 57 is quite scary considering the fact that i did not even check through my paper, and i only saw the right angle at the last 15 mins and had sooooooooo many careless mistakes!!! the final ratio is just simply 1:2 and i could not get it +_+...... sigh......some can even do finish and check through..... sigh........

CHEM SPA... ok i totally flunk chem spa, i bet i am like the only one who doesnt' know that we need to test for carbonate..... i really didn't know can! i didn't even cross my mind that the calcium hydroxide and rubber tube thingy was there for us to test.... sigh.... i think i'm simply dumb can... some can just see the powder's colour and choose btw 2 compounds le....
i didn't even know how to do....... sigh......... i never even thought that have efferverscence means must test for carbon dioxide..... sigh...... i wonder how i got into 302 man.......

Ok, so tomoro i think we'll also be getting back our physics which i don think i will do that well too, even if i get A1, i doubt it'd be high... so yeah...
IH, well, i definitely think i didn't do well!!! cos the entire level didn't do that well, but of course there are exceptions like the very pro ppl in my class (its not meant to be sarcastic, i really mean that they are really pro!!)

Ok lets talk abt more happy things. Tomoro is NPDP! whao!
So need to polish like siao and iron U and all! this year do flag, i hope i don't screw up!!! squadmates look really nice walking out from the center, so envious!!! but well, i think the flag is zai too! esp the part where we bang and bang and march and all hahas+)
Hope we can coordinate well tomoro!
PRAY HARD THAT IT DOESN'T RAIN!!!
after npdp, it is DALT dinner! i think this will be like the last dalt dinner unless our squad wants it next year together hahas+) dresscode for our squad is, according to clar tan, "white underwear..." hahas+) well, can't check anyway! hahahas+)
Need to wear Full U for the entire sch day! hahas+) so weird during GM!!! hahas+) still have SIL! hahs+) can't wear NP jacket! awww man!!!! hahahas+)

more spas to go next week! i hate spa man, maybe next time grow up will have kong3 ju4 of SPA!!! hahas+)

2009-05-04T21:24:00.001+08:00

i hate swallowing pills.....
can never swallow then without having to drink a cup of water or more.....

2009-05-04T20:31:00.002+08:00

Tomoro is math!!! and its 8.30 le! and i am still at Qine!!!!!! ahhhhhhh!!!
haven even started on Bio and there's act tomoro!!
Today headache can! a bit only though+) ohoh, then we ran 2.4 today!!??!
we were all hoping that the rain would continue all the way but it didn't so we had to run!
esp today we can't eat lunch cos they pushed lunch forward b4 PE!! argh...
in the end left abt 25 mins for entire class to run, and ms yeo decided that the entire class shall run together! hahas+)
Julia is freaky!! hahas+) no lah+) jkjk+) pure fast!! hahas+) god job good job+)
today's timing was more surprising sia! i have never gotten a B for 2.4 b4! hahas+) quite happy=)
i hope i counted correct no. of rounds+) should be lah! hahas+)
though its quite a low B but its a B nonetheless!! hahahas+)
hope i do well in math and bio +)

2009-04-29T20:44:00.002+08:00

i am back from dinner+)
well, me and yunqi took 2hr30mins ++ to finish a 1.5 pg essay.....
i very scared fail leh! lian2 lei4 yunqi! she so pro! sigh..
my IH is horrible sia!!! i can't relate!! esp when english isn't that good, can't rephrase or simply just express what i think in to words!! ekkkkkkss!!!!!
this 2 days is li hai one lor!
today:
1st lesson = physics block
2nd lesson= physics lesson
last lesson=physics prac
WHAO!!! hahas+) but well, physics lesson pass quite fast lah, though i keep getting lost here and there!! hahas+)
tomoro also scary:
3rd lesson: summary test
4th lesson: Bio quiz
5th lesson: Chinese compo!!
evil stuff happening one after the other!! sigh sigh...
ohoh, i forgot to say this but
WE GOT INTO YFC!!! hahas+) hope we do well man! +) ohoh, best liao lor why? cos:
23 may 2009:
-->Open House
-NP de and PSL de
-->YFC opening
li hai liao lor! hahas+)
mengmeng even pro-er,
SLC facilitator training, open house, chem ecar, YFC opening etc.etc.
shersher and sisi both also have open house! hahas+)

Tomoro wear full-u!?! sigh... must prep!! rawrrrrrr! hahas+) but wear u looks nicer lah+) hahas+) my boots lao3 le!!! wrinkles!! hahas+) ok thats all for the day+)

2009-04-29T19:48:00.003+08:00

We are left with 2 more block test for the term! woo hoo+)
i hope i do well for both esp math cos is DOUBLE WEIGHTAGE!!!! did i spell weightage correctly? cos it looks wrong.. ok nvm..
oh well, today we had physics block test, took very long for every question in MCQ, don rmb what i wrote le and i don want to discuss!
i was seriualy stuck at the graph can! i know that downwards is taken as positive BUT i don know if the ball is dropped 1st or thrown up 1st?!? actually, does it matter?? the rest of the paper wasn't so bad, I COULD DO TICKER TAPE!!! hahas+) so surprising+)+)
i hope i do better for physics than i did for chem bah, LA and Chi cmi, science and math cannot cmi! hahas+) well for the benefit of those not from NP and don know what cmi means, it is "cannot make it" hahas+)+) see i so considerate+)+)
Mengmeng sheng1 bing4 le! Get well soon meng meng!! have things to tell u that will definitely make u laugh!! hahas+) hint** hint**! hahas+)+) shall continue with a second post later+)
dinner time+)

2009-04-21T21:41:00.003+08:00

Cannot tahan!
Very e xin! It is dirty to the extreme level can!
ok the story goes like this,
today went to the restroom, then hor turn around, and saw sth ON the bluebins that horrified me!!!!!! no, it is not you-think-what.. that would be so much less gross than that..
THERE WERE MAGGOTS ON THE BINS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ARGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH BLUAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH EKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKS WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
WTHWTHWTHWTHWTHWTHWTHWTHWTHWTHWTHWTHWTHWTHWTHWTHWTHWTH
at least hor fly flying out still not that bad arh, maggots leh= blur bin = breeding area!!!1 horrible terrible.. feel itchy when i think of it!!! walao!!!!!! very gross leh.... argh...........
okok should stop..
i can't find my phone which makes me even more irritated.........